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TMPG Chapter 41: The Lonely Youth Who Longs for Warmth

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“Whine whine whine!”

“Hey, you have already eaten a lot, Âi Moo. Are you taking this too?”

"Woof!"

If you are going to look at me like that, Âi Moo.

Graph accidentally swallowed with difficulty. It was not because he suddenly wanted to eat a dog, but who would believe that the brilliantly clear blue eyes of a three-month-old, fluffy Siberian Husky from the north could simultaneously appear pleading, coaxing, begging, and pitiful, just because he was holding the grilled chicken he had for a late lunch in his hand.

Thump.

That was not all. The dog probably knew he was soft-hearted, because the idiot dog that everyone called Moo was placing its front paws on Graph's lap. It even increased the level of pleading in its eyes until the handsome young man inadvertently... lowered his guard.

Chomp.

“Hey!"

“Yum yum yum!”

In that instant, the greedy dog quickly snatched the grilled chicken from his hand. It used its two front paws to guard the food, then flopped down onto the floor with a thud, causing Graph to yell out. This very cry made Moomoo look up and make a sound that seemed to say... look at me, look at me.

That expression... .

“Yeah, whatever. If you want to eat, go ahead. You will get so fat you will roll over. It is not my problem,” Graph could only place his hand on the puppy's fluffy head, in a way that made it whine in response, and then go back to happily enjoying his fragrant grilled chicken.

The scene made Nai Krittitee smile.

So damned cute. What kind of shit-lizard dog is this? I really want to steal it and take it home!

Screech.

“Hey, Âi Graph. You have been playing with Âi Moo for hours. Are you not hot?” Suddenly, the glass door separating the house balcony leading to the garden from the living room, where the sounds of a fighting game were blaring, opened. The face of the homeowner popped out and asked curiously, causing the person who had come specifically to play with the dog to look down at his watch.

It was three in the afternoon.

Graph had not realized either that he had been at his friend's house for two hours. Right after his class ended, he called his friend, saying, "Let us meet at your house," not wanting to elaborate that he was a prisoner under his supervision. By the time he arrived, it was almost afternoon. At first, he was still hesitant and afraid to touch the puppy. Furthermore, each of his friends seemed very familiar with it. Moomoo ran to that person, then to this person, to the point where it was panting from being teased. Only when the others got tired of playing with the dog did he finally try to touch it.

Who said dogs have a self-preservation instinct? Not this Siberian. It had none. It only wagged its tail vigorously, looked at him with wide, expectant eyes as if to say, "Play with me," and... "Feed me."

The moment his friend threw the dog treat over, Âi Moo never left his side. After that, the delinquent youth that everyone talked about stayed with the dog for hours. He even had to have a youth in his friend's house bring his lunch out to the wooden balcony... the lunch that the dog had already stolen and eaten.

“It is hot. Look at my sweat,” Graph answered his friend, even wiping the sweat from his forehead to show him, which made the homeowner laugh and beckon him.

“Then come inside and play games in the air conditioning. But do not bring Âi Moo in. Its teeth are itchy; last time it chewed my game controller until I had to throw it away,” his shorter friend said that, but the person whose purpose was to play with the dog shook his head.

“Then you guys play on. I will stay here.”

“Hahaha. You are smitten with Âi Moo, are not you? Just ask your Phô to buy you one. My Phô bought Âi Moo for ten thousand. A price like that would not make your Phô bat an eye,” he said, not knowing that his Phô was not home now, and even if he were home...

"Raising a dog? In and out of the hospital like this, where would he find the time to take care of it?"

Graph remembered that when he was a young child, he had asked his Phô too, and got an answer like that. Although he got everything he wanted, it could not be a living creature, as if his parents thought a youth like him was incapable of caring for one. Or, thinking again... those two people did not want to see a furry animal in the house. But if it was an object... whatever he wanted, he could have.

“Even a big bike costing millions, he bought it for me.”

In exchange for keeping the secret about the mistress, you idiot.

He shook his head and just made a "Hmph" sound in his throat. Just thinking about his own Phô made him disgusted, so he had to...

“He would not buy me one. I will just ask to play with the dog at your house instead.”

“Yeah, yeah, come on. If that is the case, take it for a run too. You can throw toys for it. The more tired it is, the better. This thing has way too much energy. If it is not tired, it will bother me again,” his close friend said that before closing the sliding door, leaving the handsome guest to turn his attention back to the fluffy creature that had finished the grilled chicken, leaving only the bones it seemed intent on chewing on.

“No, you cannot have this. You will puncture your stomach.” The young man did not seem to mind grabbing the saliva-covered bone and throwing it onto the plate that only had the remains... Well, that Moo ate it all; he did not get a single bite.

“Woof woof!” Once it was full, which probably meant it knew there was nothing more for it to eat, the handsome-faced dog stood up and barked in his face, as if to say it wanted to play now.

“Hahaha. Your life is so good, is not it? Just eating and playing, two things.” Even though he said that, he threw the toy to the other side of the yard. Of course, the large puppy shot out after it, and then...

“Woof woof woof woof!"

The handsome Siberian Husky stood barking desperately at the toy, alternating with turning to look at his face. Then it ran circles around the toy as if to say... come pick it up and throw it for me again.

"Hey, you just bring it back. Why are you running in circles chasing your own tail? Ugh, I am too lazy to get up.” Even though he said that, Graph stepped over, grabbed the toy, and threw it again. Then the same cycle repeated... The idiot dog ran around the toy but did not bring it back.

So, it just wanted someone to run after it, watch it, and bark for someone to come pick it up and throw it again?

His mind wanted to scold it, but seeing those bright eyes, he could not help it.

Whoosh.

“Come here, you troublemaker!” Graph lunged in, hugging and wrestling with the fluffy ball until its fur flew everywhere. That was not all; he was also licked on the face and mouth until he was soaked. His laughter echoed around as he grabbed his mobile phone to take a picture of himself with the large dog, to send to a certain someone.

Will Phîi Pakin scold me? Whatever. He was the one who wanted me to report so much. Here, I am reporting.

The young man told himself this while sending a picture of the pair lying sprawled on the lawn, with the large dog lying on his chest, panting heavily, drool dripping onto his shirt, forcing him to reach out and rub its head vigorously.

“Do you want to come live at my house, Moo?”

“Woof!” It barked once, who knew if it understood or not, but then it got up and ran towards the front of the house, making Graph get up to look... his friend's Mâe had arrived.

“Sigh!” A thought from the person who had lain sprawled on the lawn, not afraid of getting dirty, because suddenly a shitty feeling arose in his heart.

I am lonely. I want to have something of my own... something that belongs only to me.

The thought made his face instantly sadder, because the person he wanted a heart from the most, someone like a certain person... he would probably never get it.

Graph knew that the reason Phîi Pakin was looking after him now was because he was responsible for his safety. But they happened to sleep together, which made it seem special. But his status in that house... he truly did not know what it was.

“Damn, I am going to cry.” The young man blinked rapidly, forcing the tears back as he sat up. Was this the kind of loneliness that made him want a dog? Hoping it might make his loneliness go away a little.

“But someone like me probably could not keep anything alive.” A thought ingrained in him by his family. He could have everything he wanted, except taking care of something with a heart.

His Phô did not care about his Mâe. His Mâe was indifferent to his Phô. How to care for someone with thoughts and feelings... Graph never knew.

What molded this youth made him not even know how to care for, pay attention to, or coax someone.

“I do not even dare to try and coax Phîi Win.”

Last night, he did not know what came over him, wanting to hug Phîi Win. But in the end, he did not dare. He could only listen to this and that story until he eventually fell asleep. His lack of courage did not just come from his family's upbringing, but because every time he tried to reach for someone, he was always pushed away.

A certain someone sent a message back, making his phone vibrate. "Do not play in the sun. I am too lazy to take care of a sick person... "

Conditional. The person who spoke curtly, yet the message that seemed caring made Âi Graph... comply without question.

Right now, why is Phîi being nice to me?

Graph wanted to know, but he did not dare ask, because he was afraid... afraid he would not receive this kind of concern again.

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A little past six o'clock, Pakin had just stepped into the house when he heard a vehicle pulling up and parking in front of the building, causing the person who was looking down at his phone to put it away in his pocket.

He was just wondering where that youth had disappeared to for hours.

Last night, he had not returned home. Initially, he intended to finish up quickly and return, but because some problems came up, the young man stayed to handle things at the company all night and only finished around five-thirty. The youth under his supervision had called to say he was leaving his friend's house, and he thought he would arrive back first, but it turned out he arrived later.

Âi-stubborn-youth got out of the vehicle with a wide smile, looking thoroughly disheveled, making him suspect whether he had been playing with the dog or rolling in the dirt somewhere.

“Why are you only returning now?” He had left his friend's house a full half hour before he left the company.

Graph looked up at the question.

“Traffic was bad, Phîi. There was a vehicle accident near my friend's house. It took half an hour just to get out... You returned early today.”

He was happy.

How could Pakin not know? His eyes sparkled with delight. The lips that were already smiling widely lifted even higher. He jumped up the house steps to stand right in front of him, making him shrug.

“Work finished quickly.”

“Then will you have dinner with me?”

“If I do not eat here, where else would you send me to eat?”

Thud.

The person who retorted with a question fell silent. The youth with the bad personality that he had found annoying since forever looked at him excitedly and uttered words that made the listener pause.

“Then I do not have to eat alone!”

Is this what Win keeps saying... This one is lonely.

“And Win?”

“Phîi Win called to say he would be back late, to go ahead and eat without waiting.”

The listener nodded in acknowledgment. When he reached his hand out, the storyteller paused, his fair cheeks turning red. He lowered his head as if thinking he would pat his head like the past two days, but...

Whoosh.

“Did you go play with the dog, or did you go wallow in dog fur?” The young man instead lifted the corner of his mouth in a smile, pulling a dog hair stuck all over his shirt, making Graph look up to follow his gaze. Then he looked down at himself again.

“Hey!” Graph seemed to just notice that the silvery-gray hairs were stuck all over his white school uniform shirt, so he had to brush them off, but they seemed stubbornly stuck.

“Will Aunt Kaew scold me?”

Since when was he afraid of being scolded?

The guardian, who hardly knew the details of the youth's life, frowned sharply and asked.

“Have you been scolded before?”

“Ugh, so many times, Phîi. Just this morning, I got scolded because I would not wake up. Aunt Kaew was considerate of Phîi Win who was still sleeping, so she came to wake me up many times. By the time she managed to drag me out of bed, she hit me.”

The listener was even more surprised. Thinking of the head housekeeper, he could guess she hit him lightly, like a mosquito bite. It was obvious she favored this youth.

But what was strange...

“You are not angry?” Âi-selfish-youth that no one could criticize, no one could correct, no one could look down on... the one who would throw a tantrum showing off that he was the only son of a famous politician raised with money... The one who made one cringe. But it seemed this time was different, as Graph shook his head vigorously and asked back, not understanding, until...

“Why should I be angry? Aunt Kaew means well. If I am late, I have to go to the discipline office again. She is much better than the many nannies at my house. They were told to wake me up, but after I yell at them once, saying I will not get up, not a single one of them dares to try again.”

The answer made the adult narrow his eyes slightly, because he seemed to vaguely understand.

He did not want someone to indulge him; he wanted someone to care for him.

It was something he had overlooked all along, thinking he was just a youth with problems. Now that Graph had softened, he saw something he had not seen for many years. This Âi-stubborn-youth was just a youth who was lonely and needed love, pitifully so.

You should keep overlooking it, Âi Pakin. The young man told himself, because seeing these things was a dangerous signal for him.

Yet he could not stop his hand... the hand that reached out to press heavily on his head, making the youth cry out.

“Ouch, that hurts, Phîi.”

“Hmph, I pressed to make it hurt. Go take a shower. Do not come shaking your fur around here.” Having said that, he released his hand, letting the person who was scolded as if he were a dog bare his teeth at him.

“Do you want to get bitten, fangs and all?” the youth asked, making the listener... laugh in his throat.

“A puppy like this?”

Thud.

If it were just words, it might not have been a big deal, but that challenging, half-mocking smile was what made the selfish youth fall silent. His cheeks also burned hotly, indescribably. But before he could open his mouth to argue...

The phone rang, interrupting. Just from Pakin looking at the screen, his expression changed to calm and still.

He answered with a strong voice. “Can they handle it?”

Graph could not hear what was said on the other end. He only saw the large person turn and move his lips.

Go take a shower...

Just that, before the homeowner walked towards his study, leaving the young man pouting.

“Ordering me around for real.” But the person who spoke... still went upstairs to shower obediently, because suddenly, the loneliness... vanished the moment he saw the stern face of the person entangled with work.

"Go take a shower, hmph. Ordering me around!"

Inside the bathroom, the young man, who was removing the dog-fur-covered clothes from his body, stood under the warm stream of water. His two hands pumped shampoo onto his sweaty head, his mouth muttering complaints all the while, even though... he was smiling widely.

Just thinking that after his shower, there would be someone to eat with made him happy.

“I should go play with Âi Moo again.” Thinking of this, he laughed out loud, remembering the dog with the begging face that had eaten its fill from him but still went to sit in front of the kitchen, waiting for food from his friend's Mâe who was cooking. However you looked at it, it was a gluttonous dog. You did not need to be a fortune-telling goddess to know it would grow up very fat.

“You will lose your handsomeness because of getting fat, you know,” Graph said, bending over and closing his eyes to wash his hair, unaware that the person who seemed tied up with work had already entered.

The owner of the room placed his clothes in the laundry basket in the dressing area and stepped in with his naked body. His dark eyebrows lifted slightly upon hearing the sound of the water mingling with the laughter of the stubborn youth who seemed to be talking to himself, until he stopped at the glass door where a certain youth had once sat hugging his knees and crying... the youth who was now humming a tune in a good mood.

Strange... but a scene like this made him smile. When he behaves well, he is quite endearing.

Click.

“Phîi Pakin, how did you get in?!”

“Well, this is my room.”

Graph opened his eyes immediately upon hearing the sound of the glass door opening, and the sight made him cry out... Phîi Pakin!

The person who spoke with an even tone, but the youth's gaze was not on his mouth. He scanned his entire body, and then... his face turned red.

The man in front of him had to be said to have a physique worthy of the male gender. Whether it was the thick muscles on his arms where the muscle definition was clear, running up to his strong shoulders, his broad chest, and his abdomen with muscles that descended to the v-line at his pelvis, which was covered with dark hair, not to mention his legs that were exercised until the veins bulged, everything on his tanned skin could be said with full confidence to be... sexy in the way of a man.

A figure as if carefully sculpted by heaven that whoever looked would become... hard.

This man really had that level of charm.

The person who was looking at him with an unreadable gaze, the corners of his lips lifted just a little, but it instead made the sharp face that usually looked dangerously handsome become even more charming exponentially. When compared to a youth whose body had just fully developed, it was no different from a lion and a mouse.

The young man, although tall, was slender, without defined muscles, having only the strength of someone who plays sports during lunch break. His skin was fairer, his build was smaller, and when combined with his clear face, as is typical of a youth not yet twenty... he became even more comparatively delicate.

Suddenly, “Ouch!” The staring caused shampoo to flow into his eyes, making the stubborn youth cry out and close his eyes almost immediately.

The person watching stepped closer.

“Blink.” Even though it was an order, Graph complied willingly, by blinking rapidly to let the warm water wash away the chemical residue, while feeling his body flush with heat when the broad chest moved in to press close against him.

He moved in closer to his body.

"Will you take a shower too?"

Chib, his mouth trembled!

The youth who liked to show off tried to speak in a steady voice as if he felt nothing, but in reality, his voice trembled obviously. It trembled even more when he opened his eyes and found that the large hand rested against the wall. The man leaned his face down close to his ear like this.

"Hmm, I did not take a shower this morning. I only took one last evening."

Heuak!

Graph merely flinched when the stiff beard touched the earlobe. He almost raised his hand to cover his ear. He did not do so because the warm mouth pressed down just below the ear a little.

The touch made him tremble all over. Pakin pressed down harder and sucked gently.

"Will you do it now? You said you would eat."

"I did not say a word that I would eat. I just chased you to take a shower." The young man could not speak because his brain started to blur with the hot touch that pressed along the neck and shoulder. The warm tip of the tongue licked along the white skin. It left heat along the way. The lump in his chest beat faster than before, because this was the first time he was aroused like this.

Sex every time in the past often started not so well for them, but this time it seemed that Pakin intended to arouse him slowly.

The thought belonged to the person who looked at the large hand that slid to press on his stomach. It stroked up and down until he had to tense his lower abdomen. As soon as the rough hand passed over the chest and rubbed against the skin, Graph accidentally bit his teeth. He realized that he waited for the fingertip that flicked down on the nipple.

The tingling sensation transmitted through the fingertip. It raced to the brain before spreading throughout the body until the white skin started to change color. The young man could only tilt his face up and turn to the back. He looked at the sharp, dark face that sucked and nibbled the skin on the shoulder. However, the sharp, bold eyes stared at his eyes.

The eyes seemed as if they would devour him until he could only ask in a trembling voice.

"Kiss me, please."

Instead of an answer, Pakin lifted his face from the white skin. The other hand reached to turn off the shower until the whole room remained only silent. Meanwhile, the sharp, dark face that seemed like the god of death leaned down close. The lips stayed away from the fresh-colored lips a little. However, the young man did not kiss down there. He slid his lips to the tip of the nose and pressed down gently. He slid over to the eyelids and forehead until the young man could only close his eyes.

It felt hot everywhere that was touched.

Who would believe that being kissed like this made the body hot as if it said he could not endure it?

Pakin teased and made him beg.

"You smile."

Graph opened his mouth and called in a trembling voice. That made the very hot lips press firmly onto the beautiful-colored mouth. They crushed heavily until the body trembled. The hot tip of the tongue licked all over every particle of the mouth. Then it inserted deeply inside. It caressed the mouth wall and rubbed against the soft tip of the tongue until the recipient panted and trembled.

This kiss differed from every time, but it had more emotion than every time.

It helped support him. The kiss seemed as if it would devour him until his knees trembled. He could only reach his hand to grab the forearm as support.

The young man was pushed to turn his body back to face him. Meanwhile, his back was pushed until it pressed against the bathroom wall. The two hands slid up to hug around the wide shoulders. He almost could not hold back the moaning sound when Pakin lifted his knee to insert between his thighs.

"Ugh... Huh... " As soon as the hard knee rubbed against the sensitive part, Graph accidentally dug into the other's shoulder with the tingling sensation. The one who gave the hot kiss so intense that he almost could not breathe pulled away slowly. He saw the clear water that connected them.

"Hee, you cannot endure just this."

"I... Ugh... "

Graph swallowed the answer in his throat immediately when the large hand grabbed the hot shaft. The thumb tip rubbed against the red, glistening end. As soon as it rubbed a few times, he tilted his face and panted heavily. He flinched heuak all over. He flinched even harder when the lips moved down to the swollen nipple.

"Hag, Ah... No, you... Do not suck... Do not suck... "

He did not just lick, but Pakin both bit and sucked as if milk would come out. The young man could only clutch the other's dark hair. He arched his chest toward him and panted until he trembled. He felt as if he would lose his breath just because the other teased the part that was not suitable for a man like him.

"More!" Just the tip of the tongue swiped up and down, and Graph almost screamed in his throat.

Whoosh

That was not enough. The thick-bodied person inserted two hands to his back. He massaged the narrow passage a little. The young man trembled. The hand that dug the hair clutched tighter. Then he tilted his face close to the wall when...

Flop

It came in.

Graph bit his own lip tightly when the gel-covered fingertip inserted deeply into his body. It did not hurt. On the contrary, his body accepted it. It sucked heavily and clenched frequently when he felt that the fingertip rubbed against the walls all around. It stimulated heavily until he almost dropped to the floor with desire.

"You... Ugh, it tingles... "

Being invaded from above with the lips that bit without stopping, below with the hot fire shaft that moved in to press against his until they rubbed against each other, and the back passage that was stimulated heavily as if knowing the sensitive spot made the recipient moan and pant in his throat. He could not hold back the sound. He could only lift his body to rub against the other.

Bloody fucking, it was not enough. Just this was not enough.

"Wait, I will fall! You wait, I will fall!"

Whoosh

"Hold tight." The thought that the other also knew because the one who aroused lifted the young man's leg up on one side. The other hand squeezed the soft butt to spread out. He pushed the large part to rub at the entrance until the noisy youth cried out in a trembling voice. The two hands slid to grab the forearm almost not in time.

The listener whispered in a hoarse voice. "Take it all."

Swup

Heuak!

"Ugh, more, ee, ha, you, you, heuak! Yours is hot... "

Graph screamed in his throat when the heat like a fire rod inserted deeply into his body. It both chafed and tingled. It inserted deeply slowly and rubbed against every side of the wall until he felt full. But more than that was the overflowing desire. He felt so wanting that he spread his legs wider.

The hot shaft that soaked for a little, then started to thrust gently made the youth tremble all over. The one who looked grabbed the other's neck in. He received the very hot kiss that plunged in to entwine with the tip of his tongue as much as the lower part that plunged in heavily until the youth startled.

"Ah, Huh... Huh... "

The movement that he did not expect made Graph hug the neck tightly. His hips trembled all over. His legs trembled when the large part was pulled out almost all, then thrust back in deeply to the core until tears welled up in his eyes. The panting sound echoed loudly and trembled. He felt as if he would lose his breath with the touch that pounded inside.

"Good, ahh, I tingle, Huh... " The inexperienced youth cried with tears welling up in his eyes. And that...

Whoosh

"Ah! Deep... You... Deep... "

Pakin managed to lift the slimmer-bodied person's body. He made the two legs hook around his narrow hips. He pushed the back close to the back wall. Then he pounded his body in heavily. The sharp teeth bit tightly when the pleasure surrounded his shaft. Graph's body clenched heavily until Pakin almost could not endure it. And what about the face stained with tears?

The swollen, bruised mouth that opened and called him repeatedly. It uttered deep moaning sounds that aroused him more than anyone. The face of the arrogant youth that twisted with tingling desire. It released tears to stain the cheeks.

The body of that youth was still pure and clean, but why did it make an experienced person like him want it this much?

Swup swup swup swup

"Ah!!! You are strong... Too strong, I will... Ugh... " Pakin gritted his teeth. He inserted his body in both heavily, weightily, violently, and passionately until the recipient shook his head back and forth. The two legs hooked around his waist tightly. He moved his body in until the fresh-colored middle shaft rubbed against Pakin's dark hair group.

The youth was about to finish.

Guk

"You... Wha... Why?" And that made the doer slow the rhythm down until Graph protested. He hugged the other's neck. Then he whispered.

"Let me finish... I... Want to come... Let me... Please... Ugh." The young man begged as he could not endure it when it was just a little more to the destination. He also sent his hand to grab the middle shaft, but Pakin grabbed it first. The handsome, wicked face lifted a smile a little. Then...

Swup swup swup swup swup

Heuak!!!! More... Ah!" The hot fire shaft plunged into the hot heat again. It pounded into the inner sensitive button rapidly until the slender body flinched every time it was inserted. The eyes widened. The lips opened, and released clear water to stain the mouth edge as if forgetting how to swallow. He only knew that he would lose his breath.

Pakin's movement made him about to lose his breath and die.

"Ah, Ah... Ah!"

Spurt

And then, the young man released just from the touch from behind and the rubbing of his shaft with the hard stomach in front. However, he had to flinch all over when the hot heat that sank deeply into the body still moved in heavily until his head shook. He could only hook and hold the strong forearm tightly until he had to flinch all over when the very hot liquid sprayed inside.

And it flowed out along with the hot fire shaft that pulled out slowly.

Graph was sure that he would fall to the floor if the other let go, but the slender body still hooked like that even though the legs trembled until he almost could not stand. When the two large hands supported at the waist, the sharp face of the tired, panting person because of exertion bent down to press against the dark hair group.

The embrace that made the argumentative youth feel good in a way he could not explain. He felt as if he received protection until he did not want to move his body. Until...

"Tomorrow I will go down south. I still do not know when I will come back."

The words made the listener widen his eyes. He lifted his face to meet the sharp, bold eyes as if he did not believe his eyes.

"Wha... What do you mean?"

"I have work."

Meanwhile, the heartless-person said only that as if he did not know at all that the lonely youth, but some stubborn-mouthed person... His heart dropped to his heels.

Suddenly, Graph felt that this sex seemed like a farewell. Along with one thought.

Who will you go with!?

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