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Perspective Gok
I already know that Phîi Pong worries about me. I already know that Phîi Pong cares about me. I already know that Phîi Pong respects me. But... why must it be this Âi'guy too!!!
“This is the shop that was in the news the other day.”
“The one that said the shop owner is gay, you know.”
“Oh, when he announced it, he then introduced his romantic partner too.”
“Really? Ah!!!”
“Yes, damn, he is extremely handsome to death. The shop owner is already handsome, but his romantic partner that they say is so handsome it makes you cry is even more handsome. Now the shop is full of fangirls.”
The shop is full of fangirls... I understand this word very much.
Phîi Pong says that I do not have to come to the shop because he does not want me to get involved in the scandal too. But I cannot stand it, damn. Staying home quietly is not possible. Going out with friends, I do not want to. Do not even mention drinking alcohol. I do not do anything except worry about Phîi Pong like crazy. Today I therefore grit my teeth and call to beg Janjao to come be a friend for a bit.
Since I cannot enter the back of the shop, then entering the front of the shop by using my friend as a shield is okay.
However, upon arriving, today there are no office women. There are no students. But there are young women... who sit fangirling and looking at the two men behind the counter!
And why are there two men... when the romantic partner of Phîi Pong (which is me) just walked in and sat down in the shop ten seconds ago!!!!
Therefore, I am definitely not the romantic partner of Phîi Pong that the fangirls around are talking about. But it is... that Âi'guy!!!!
That nuisance is the one Phîi Pong once said is an important person, who once interrupted me and Phîi Pong, who called me that youth, and even thought I would be discarded by Phîi Pong. Do you remember yet? I have revisited the past and recalled memories a lot. Yes, that Âi'guy. Now he is in the shop!
The man I once said is handsome—sorry, damn—even if you are an angel born on earth, I choose to see you as ugly!
The person who wears a shirt and jeans, who anyone might see as extremely handsome to death, whatever, but what I care about is that he... is wearing a brown apron with the shop logo, same as Phîi Pam!
And now the person I consider my adversary is standing beside my Phîi Pong.
“I heard them call him Phîi Khai. Even his name is handsome, right?” “Isn't it? His name is like a Korean singer, but his face... It is like a male lead himself.”
How long will you keep saying "right," you damned-animal?
I rest my chin on my hand, extremely fed up, staring straight at that man named Khai who is making coffee with a very professional demeanor. Just looking, I know that the shop has gained another helper, which is that Âi'guy. Even though I pray for him to make mistakes, for Phîi Pong to fire him, from his demeanor, he is even more skillful than Phîi Pam.
Phîi Pong might not have found help for the shop in time, so he asked him to help. But why now? At a time when Phîi Pong just announced on the shop page how much he cares for his romantic partner, until it became famous all over the internet, to the point of overturning the rumor about assaulting a woman completely. Besides that....
“That woman is crazy, right? He rejected her because he has a romantic partner already, but she still pursued him obsessively how ugly.”
“Yes, did you read? Someone came and told me that they were there that day. That girl went crazy because the shop owner did not accept her love. He" but I cannot believe she would create rumors and try to harm him.
“Yeah, in the end, it backfired. She was exposed for wanting someone else's Phûa.”
Is the table next to us CNN from a previous life? I mean, you know too much. This means you followed the story from beginning to end, right?
As they are talking, after Phîi Pong released the CCTV footage from that day with an explanatory message, and there were people who witnessed the incident releasing supplementary clips, the fangirls all came swooning, swarming to express their opinions in a big way, worshipping Phîi Pong as a kind angel. Even though Phîi Pong did not mention the reason why that Phîi Ann went crazy, there were well-wishers who came to tell the story in the shop that... that Phîi was rejected by Phîi Pong.
This time, who is to blame? Blame that nuisance Phîi who made a loud scene in front of the shop. Other customers heard and spread it by word of mouth, until it became clear that that woman is psycho, wanting him as her Phûa until she shook. When she found out he has a romantic partner, and it is a man, she then tried to harm him.
So the result backfired on her.
I was once called a substitute Mia for Phîi Pong when I responded on Twitter instead, right? That Phîi got the same treatment. But she was criticized for not being able to find a Phûa and then being jealous. But what is not funny, not funny at all, is that I remembered that the account that criticized me and her is the same person. So on the internet, you cannot believe anyone, right? They are bloody fucking two-faced.
When they thought I was wrong, they criticized me as if I killed their Mâe. When the truth came out that the woman was slanted, they criticized her again.
I may be rebellious. I may challenge fights with friends. But I cannot accept this type of person, damn. Those who create drama following trends, without a brain, do not know at all how it feels for someone who is not wrong to be criticized. People like this must experience it themselves once to learn not to judge others!
Enough about that Phîi Ann. Let us return to this Âi Khai first.
I do not know if Phîi Pong wants to cover up the rumors or wants to draw attention away from me. So he... like this.
Phîi Pong uses his friend to create rumors instead of me!
Now it is not me sitting crying with worry for Phîi Pong, but that nuisance who has become the beloved romantic partner of Phîi Pong in others' eyes instead.
I do not accept it!!!
This Âi'guy, can he cry? His face looks more like a murderer-rapist!
“Don't you think? Just thinking about Phîi Khai crying with worry for Phîi Pong makes me fangirl until my liver bursts.”
“Right? Handsome men and tears are the most perfect combination!”
Why is the life form called fangirl so scary!
I turn back to look at Janjao and find that the friend who bothered to come with me is picking up her mobile phone to capture images of the two handsome men working together in the dessert shop, with an expression not different from the table next to us at all.
Can I kill my romantic partner's first person, that Graphic?
Crack
“Iced latte, Nong Gok.”
“Phîi Pam!!!!”
Now, is there only one person who cares about me? Even Phîi Pong has not walked over to see me!
I call out to Phîi Pam in a voice that I know is bloody fucking coquettish, making her suppress a small smile and move to sit next to me. Meanwhile, I grab the glass of milk coffee and suck immediately, thinking Phîi Pong must remember that I like it and made it to please me. Which, of course, it is delicious and smooth on the tongue, to the point I want to lick every drop of milk foam. But...
“Phîi Pong is worried and does not want Nong Gok to be in the news too, so he went to ask Phîi Khai to help. I just found out too that Phîi Khai used to help in this shop before, even before I came to work here. And his coffee-making skills are very delicious. This latte glass is Phîi Khai's work. Is it delicious?”
Whoosh
“Cough, cough, cough!”
Can I spit it back out?
I choke very hard, glaring at Phîi Pam who knows nothing, as she grabs a napkin and hands it to me with concern.
“His face does not look like he can make coffee at all. With a face like this, he should go buy Starbucks coffee to drink instead.” Janjao gives her opinion, making Phîi Pam laugh.
“I do not know either. But for drinks, you can trust Phîi Khai. I secretly asked what he really works as, but I see he does freelance work, so he has time to help.”
I think he is surely a hired killer. With a frowning, scowling face like that, who would want to hire him, damn, if not to kill people!
I am full of bias, listening to Phîi Pam who is pampering out every story.
“Since Phîi Khai came to help, the shop has been packed constantly. And they do not come because they are eyeing Phîi Pong either. I am so comfortable; I do not have to act as a dog repellent because most who come are fangirling over those two men. As for me, I really respect him. What kind of friend is he who agrees to be in the news as a gay couple?”
Yes, what kind of friend is he who agrees? He must definitely have impure thoughts about my Phûa.
“But it is good, right? The atmosphere in the shop is bright and cheerful.”
“Well, you are enjoying looking at handsome men, right?”
“Janjao, you are also enjoying taking pictures. Go ask to take a picture. Before this, there was a brave youth who ran to ask to take a couple picture and even asked... "Phîi, aren't you thinking of opening a couple account? I will go follow'... I was so amused.” The two young women match very well, laughing heartily. No one pays attention to me, so I am opening my mouth, tears welling up.
That is my Phûa! My Phûa! I do not accept it!
My thoughts are definitely intense because that Phîi Khai turns to look, and he then... smirks.
Yuck! I tell you here straight that I hate you!
***
“Moo, Phîi Pong is mine. He is mine.”
I cannot vent to anyone, Khrap. And yes, I am venting to a dog.
The blue-eyed dog panting in front of me, until I have to wave my trunk and tusks at it.
“You think about it. He even sneers at me, damn. His personality is shit-lizard. Actually, he is not just a friend; he is an important person, right? But he must definitely want to take Phîi Pong. When an opportunity like this comes, he acts like a very good friend, coming to help when Phîi Pong asks, but he must definitely be aiming to take Phîi Pong's butt. I do not accept it! The sausage is mine. Only one person can fill my donut hole. Right, Moo!!!”
“Woof!” Yes, Khrap. Whatever the owner says, Moo agrees with everything.
“You just agree with me, right!”
“Whimper.” Is it wrong for Moo to agree with the owner?
“I want you to say that Phîi Pong is mine. Why aren't you a person who goes to tell Phîi Pong, damn, that I am very jealous, very possessive, that I will keep him as my own alone? Why do you have to be a dog, damn!!!”
Moo's ears droop. I do not know what is wrong with him lately. If I scold him a little, his ears droop, his tail drops, he whimpers. Which he is doing right now. And he is sulking because I said he is just a dog, right? He then walks with his head down to the corner of the room, buries his face in his bed, and is it my imagination... my dog is crying?!!!
“Hey, Moo. I am sorry.”
“Whimper, whimper.” Sniff, Moo is sad. Moo is just a dog. “Sigh.”
I think I am crazy for thinking I can communicate with a dog. I throw myself down to lie spread out on the bed, thinking about today that I bothered to sit for a long time, was forced by Janjao to study for an hour, Phîi Pong did not come to see me, even though he had Phîi Pam tell me that he does not want me to be in the news too. But this is too cold.
Grab
“Sob.” I turn to hug the pillow, bury my face in it even though... tears are seeping.
“Phîi Pong is Gok's. Gok will not give him to anyone.”
***
Ding dong!
“Who is it now? I am in drama mode! Can't you spell the word manners? It is late. I am asleep. My parents are not home. So no one is here, damn!!!” I vent even at the person ringing the doorbell. It must be the neighbor who went out and came to leave something. Who would come at this time? But...
“Whimper, whimper.”
“What, Moo!” My dog nudges his head, making me turn annoyed. But... what he is carrying is my mobile phone set to vibrate, no mistake!!!!
Grab
I do not care that there is saliva all over the device. I press answer immediately because...
“Phîi Pong!!!”
[Are you asleep yet? I am in front of your house.]
I take back my words about not knowing manners.
Bang bang bang bang
“No! No, Gok is not asleep yet. I am not asleep yet, Phîi Pong. Do not go yet.” I quickly shout and then run noisily downstairs, press to unlock, and run to the front of the house immediately until I find Phîi Pong parked with the engine running. As for him... he stands with a warm smile, holding up a bag of cakes for me to see.
Crack
Grab
“Phîi Pong!!!” I am really very happy. So much that when I open the gate, I jump to hug Phîi Pong's neck, also calling out very, very happily, burying my face in his fragrant chest, inhaling the familiar scent, and rubbing my face back and forth.
I am not being coquettish. I am just very, very happy. “Phîi Pong, Phîi Pong! Phîi Pong!!!”
“Hahaha, it is me. What is wrong, Nong Gok?” He laughs amusingly, making me look up to make eye contact.
Ouch, I miss you.
“Phîi Pong is Gok's!”
Instead of saying something profound, I blurt out the deepest part of my heart. And after blurting it out...
“Phîi Pong, Phîi Pong is only Gok's. You must not think anything with your friend. No matter who teases or says that you two are romantic partners, the real romantic partner of Phîi Pong is Gok. Only Gok. Phîi Pong, understand?????” I shake Phîi Pong's arm hard, no longer caring how I act. I have tears welling up, you know. And now there are only two of us; why can't I be coquettish with my Phûa?
“Yes, Khrap. I have only Nong Gok. One love, one heart, truly.”
Phîi Pong himself hugs my body tightly, like a vise. There is also a kiss on the forehead, followed by a smooch on the cheek, until I have to rub my head coyly. My sulky mood fades a little.
“And today, I am sorry.” But then Phîi Pong whispers, making me look up to make eye contact. I find that he is feeling guilty.
“Nong Gok bothered to come see me at the shop, but I did not get to talk with you at all.”
Gok understands.
“Will he... come to help again for a long time?”
Mouth, oh mouth. If only you understood like the brain a little.
I already said it, so I can only bow my head, my two hands holding Phîi Pong's arms firmly. I know that I am not a good youth anymore. Phîi Pong's friend bothered to help. Moreover, I myself do not have to become gossip fodder. But I am really possessive. I really do not want anyone to interfere with this man, even if it is just rumors.
“Khai, is it?”
Who else? There is only one person.
I also want to retort like an annoying fucker, but I am sulky, damn. I cannot speak. I can only wait quietly for Phîi Pong to laugh.
“You do not need to worry about Khai's matter. Khai is just my friend.”
“But he is an important friend.”
I mumble. I remember it by heart that Phîi Pong once said it, until he reaches out to stroke my cheek. The touch of his knuckles on my skin feels good, until I have to... press my cheek against it.
“But he is still just a friend. As for Nong Gok, you are something more than that.”
I think I understand stupid young women who believe every word men say, even transferring all their money, because I think I am like that. Just Phîi Pong saying this makes me smile out. The bad mood since this afternoon fades almost completely, replaced by a warm feeling in my heart, until I take a deep breath before pulling away.
“Okay, received. Gok understands then.”
Phîi Pong is tired all day, so it is better to understand.
I intend to let him go home to rest because coming here must be just to drop off cakes. But before I can speak...
“Not finished yet?” says a third voice.
Gulp
Âi Khai, damn it!!!!
I am left with my mouth open, making a face like I saw a dog running in front of a car, when I hear the voice of that nuisance rolling down the window to hurry... is this a situation emphasizing that the villain exists as seen in soap operas after the news, damn!
Is he mocking me that we are together!!!
“Finished, finished. Why the rush?”
“Yes, I have to go back to fix this.”
“Nong Gok, then I will go now. As for the cakes, I brought them for you. I saw you did not touch any desserts today.” I am still frozen when he finishes talking with his friend, hands me the cakes, and makes as if to leave with that Âi'guy, which makes me....
Grab
“Gok is going too!!!”
Mâe, Gok is sorry. Even though Mâe taught me to know manners, this time... even if I have to go through forests and thickets, I will sit as a thorn until the end!!!!
“At first, Khai was going to stay at my house. But because urgent work came in, I have to go back to fix the work at the condo.”
I thank the Chao-nai of this Âi'guy, wherever you are in the world, know that I thank you for calling him back to his room, not staying with Phîi Pong!!!
My thoughts as I stare at the back of the neck of the person sitting with a stern face!
After I shout my intention, I run to lock the house and then jump into Phîi Pong's car without thinking, only knowing that possessiveness blinds me, my Gok-ness is full. From then on, I sit with arms crossed, staring to let the adversary know not to think you have a chance to seduce Phîi Pong.
This angel man has an owner already. And that person... is me.
“Can you handle it?”
You are dissatisfied that I am coming along, right!?
I bare my fangs behind him when that Phîi Khai turns to tell the driver, which must mean me for sure because Phîi Pong looks back and asks with a very innocent smile.
“Can you handle it, Nong Gok? If you cannot, you can sleep first.”
Phîi Pong, catch up with him, damn. Catch up with him. He is provoking me to be jealous of you!!!
I have never been so conflicted about having a kind romantic partner who is an angel like this before, truly.
“I can handle it!”
I will sit with my eyes wide open!
“Sigh.” That Phîi Khai damn sighs at me!
I am resentful. I am irritated. I do not like this Âi'guy's face at all. Go to hell.
“And is this work very urgent? If it is urgent, you do not have to help at the shop then.”
I become all ears immediately. I hope his Chao-nai throws a lot of work at him so he can go back to work and not bother with my Phîi Pong. But..
“The fixes are not much. I will go help late tomorrow.”
I think Phîi Khai intentionally says it for me to hear for sure. As for Phîi Pong... he is a father angel, Khrap.
“Yes, thank you very much. You help a lot.” He pats his friend's shoulder gratefully, not knowing at all that the war between me and this Âi'guy has begun. The person who turns back to look at me until our eyes meet, and I find that his furrowed brows, so close the brow heads touch, come even closer. Then he asks me with a deadpan face.
“Has no one taught you that when sitting in a car, you must wear a seatbelt?”
He criticizes me. Phîi Pong, look! Look! He criticizes me!!!!
I turn sharply to look at the driver, but Phîi Pong only looks at the road, so I can only bare my fangs and grit my teeth, biting back a response.
“Who wears it when sitting in the back?”
“Wear it!”
I really do not like it. Even my Mâe never orders me to wear a seatbelt. But before I can be defiant, Phîi Pong says in a soft voice.
“Please wear it. Khai is worried about Nong Gok's safety.”
You do not see through your friend yet.
I grit my teeth. I am angry, but I do not want to show it now. Just this, I already look very much like a youth. So I yank the seatbelt with full force to show that I am being sarcastic. After that, I turn to look out the window, not wanting to talk to anyone at all because Phîi Pong seems to take his friend's side too much, leaving me as just a bad apple.
A bad apple... or what.
Tears well up until I have to bow my head, hug myself tightly so I do not shake. Then I close my eyes.
Absolutely do not cry over something this small, damn. Phô taught that as a son, do not cry easily. So hold it in, you. You do not want to cry in front of the adversary!
I tell myself repeatedly. But perhaps because the air conditioner is cold, and I am angry until tired, I start to doze.
“Such a youth. He is asleep already.”
I can hear, damn! I am just sleepy, not asleep yet!
I am almost fully entering slumber when I hear an unfamiliar voice speak up. And this provoking tone, who else could it be but my adversary.
“Sigh, Khai, when will you fix your habit of speaking to others with so few words? This is why they misunderstand you as the type who is bad-mouthed and likes to pick fights.”
“I speak more than before.”
“More where? Like just now, same thing. You were worried about Nong Gok not wearing a seatbelt. Why not tell him nicely that you do not want him to have an accident like your parents? Expressing worry for someone is not as difficult as you think.” I hear Phîi Pong's voice from far away.
That guy is worried about me?
“My emotional gear probably died already.”
“You have so many emotions it is deadly. Do not let only me notice it.”
“But you use my emotionless nature to your advantage.”
I do not understand what they are talking about.
“I know, since the key to the room incident, you planned for me to see it from the beginning to make this youth misunderstand, right?”
“The matter of having me help is the same. Do you want the youth to be very possessive of you? And then let me be hated. Sigh, I told you, this youth is really dim-witted to fall into your trap like this.”
What trap? Why talk about difficult things? I mean, I am sleepy.
“Phîi Pong... sleepy.” I think I am about to fall asleep when I mumble very softly. And I hear Phîi Pong's voice as the last sentence before I fall asleep from exhaustion.
“I have waited seven years, Khai. I am ready to do everything to have Nong Gok call me Phîi Pong like this every day. Even if it is true as you say... I dug every pit. Just increase the chance a little that Nong Gok will fall into the pit more, and I am ready to keep digging more.” This is the last thing I hear Phîi say.
Now I.... do not understand anything at all.
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