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"Hee hee, so adorable."
"What's wrong with that Plêrng, Wá?"
"I don't know. He's been sitting there giggling to himself since he got here."
Práo Plêrng heard his friends gossiping about him with both ears. So he reluctantly tore his gaze away from the thing in his hand and turned to look at the faces of his two close friends. He grinned cheerfully, not angry at all. His eyes sparkled, and he swung the thing in his hand back and forth.
"Don't you guys think it's cute?"
"What is this? You made such a face I thought you got a new brand of condoms. You're sitting here looking at a keychain?!" Andrea widened her eyes and made a move to snatch the item from Plêrng's hand, but there was no way he would let her. He pulled it back towards himself instantly, snapping it away from the person who thought he was too horny. Well, it was true, he was horny.
But are you crazy? Who would sit looking at a condom and giggling? A new dildo would be cuter.
"It's a keychain, you know."
"Here, let me (Kuu) see it."
Phént reached out to ask to see it, but Plêrng shook his head. He hooked his finger through the ring and held it out for his friends to see the small animal figurine, a black tiger, dangling from it. Both Andrea and Phént turned to look at each other, then turned back to look at the face of the person who was presenting the item in his hand as if it were incredibly, unbearably cute.
"It's just a keychain, right?" The half-Thai girl still spoke as bluntly as ever, making the person who had picked it out himself frown sharply.
"It's adorable to death. The moment I (Kuu) saw it, I bought it immediately. But someone happened to grab the bill."
Plêrng recounted with an enthusiastic manner. Well, on the recent holiday, he went to eat with that Phán, right? And he brought Phîi Sǐndhu along. That Nông of his wanted to buy a birthday present for a friend (unsure if it was a friend with benefits too), so they went to look together. He himself was browsing things aimlessly when his eyes suddenly landed on this stern-faced little black tiger.
"Don't you guys think it looks just like Phîi Sǐndhu?"
The moment he saw it, he grabbed it to show Phîi Sǐndhu. Well, this man had a stern face but was very observant, you know. When he said it looked like him, the other party made a surprised face but didn't say anything, just took it and paid for it. And now it was hanging with the key Phîi Sǐndhu had given him before, just like this.
"Ohhh, I (Kuu) know why he's giggling now." The half-Thai girl said laughingly, her eyes so sparkling you'd want to poke them out.
"Don't look at me (Kuu) like that, you foreigner. You know I (Kuu) like cute things. It's not just because it looks like Phîi Sǐndhu at all."
When his friends looked at him with knowing eyes, he backtracked almost too quickly. He stuffed the black tiger keychain, attached to his keys, into his pocket, afraid of losing it. Why would he show it to them? If they pretended to throw it away, that would be bad.
Phént's manner was to shake his head.
"Why are you making excuses? Liking him is liking him, that's all."
"Like, huh? I (Kuu) like his... section."
Wait. The person who said their thing was only a physical relationship was making a conflicted face, speaking with confidence. This was different from Phént, who seemed desensitized whenever this topic was brought up, because he was lightly hitting his own forehead with a notebook.
"And what does his section have to do with the keychain in your hand? Can you stick it in a hole as a substitute for a toy?"
"Ruthless. Phént is going all out today."
Andrea laughed with delight. Plêrng was about to open his mouth to argue, but...
"Enough, you. No need to make excuses. I (Kuu) myself was going to stop asking when you'd stop being lazy and listen properly. You yourself don't need to stir anymore, Andrea. I (Kuu) won't help agitate either, because it's ineffective now. You, Plêrng, are the one who should know best what your relationship with Phîi Sǐndhu is. Ask yourself a little, Wôoi, have you ever taken something given by someone you slept with and sat looking at it like this? Ask if you remember their faces. You still can't answer." Phént fired off a series of statements, making the cheerful person press his lips together tightly. He wanted to open his mouth to argue, but found he couldn't.
The reason that he wasn't bored yet was indeed being used too often.
"Fine, I (Kuu) can stop agitating. But as Âi'Phént said, if you want to break up, break up yourself. But since you don't want to break up now, there's no need to find any excuses. Just keep dating, that's all. You say you don't like him, but if you're still with Phîi Sǐndhu, you are still Phîi Sǐndhu's romantic partner. My (Kuu) objective is accomplished." Andrea added with a more serious manner than ever, causing Plêrng to open his mouth.
He seemed like he was going to say something, but after a moment, he closed his mouth again.
Then he narrowed his eyes.
"Why are you, Sing guy and foreign girl, so in sync today, Wá?" Plêrng said jokingly, changing the subject. And would his close friends not know? As they said... they'd stopped asking.
"I (Kuu) don't match with Âi'Phént, you know. He's gay; he doesn't want me (Kuu)." The half-Thai girl said in a way that made Phént immediately retort.
"You say that as if you'd let me (Kuu) have you. I heard you wanted Plêrng's sister so badly you were shaking."
"Oho! Plêrng, did you hear that? The Sing guy said the word 'have' too, Wá. Ruthless. Pervert."
Seeing that the topic was moving away from himself, Plêrng himself joined in with his two friends, letting the conversation go wherever it went. Topics included how Phént was still holding out hope, wanting the man who he had secretly loved for several years, and how Andrea was aiming to get Praiphan because she liked cool girls. The matter in his head gradually eased, and the stubborn feeling in his chest lightened. He tried to tell himself as his two friends said.
Since you still want to be together, just keep being together like this. It's not like it's love one bit.
The thought of the person who raised his hand to gently sweep the hair, which had the black clip attached, to the middle of his head, and then couldn't help but reach into his pocket to touch the keychain he had fallen for at first sight.
If being with Phîi Sǐndhu made him feel bad, he would have broken up already. But since it wasn't bad... then he'd just let it be for now.
***
Meanwhile, at the Faculty of Law, even though the professor had dismissed the class, Sǐndhu remained sitting still in the same position... his hand holding a pen resting on his notebook, his face looking straight ahead as if paying attention, but his eyes were drifting far away. This caused his close friend, who had finished packing, to turn and look at him with a surprised expression.
"Sǐndhu."
"Huh? What is it, Wá?"
Sǐndhu blinked twice, then turned to look at the person who called him with confusion, only to meet eyes that showed concern.
"Class is over, Wôoi. What's wrong with you?"
"Ah, class is over already?" The listener looked around the room and found that his classmates had already started filing out. He could only make an excuse.
"I (Kuu) slept a bit too little last night, so I (Kuu) can't concentrate well."
But Mix [Mik] still didn't move away.
"Do you have something on your mind, Wá? Or is it about.... Nông Plêrng?"
Thud
The listener froze immediately, because he remembered the conversation he had overheard when he followed the two siblings to the restroom.
That's right. Sǐndhu had heard.
When the two left the shop, he himself had been struck by the hair clip and didn't hesitate to buy it, because he saw Nông Plêrng brushing the hair from his forehead many times. He was impatient to give it to him quickly, so he followed the pair out. And he happened to hear the conversation that... Nông Plêrng saw him as an important person, but in what capacity?
The feelings Sǐndhu had for Nông Plêrng were so strong that even he himself was surprised. But Nông Plêrng had told his sister.... he didn't know.
Then there was the question..... had he stopped being promiscuous or not?
Even though they had attended the same university for several years, Sǐndhu hadn't known the other party before that drunk night. He didn't know what kind of person Nông Plêrng was, or what kind of relationships he had with others in what form. Even though he believed with all his heart the words that said he was his first romantic partner, the young man suddenly thought, what if he wasn't a romantic partner?
He had even been surprised that someone that adorable didn't have a romantic partner. So why would it be strange if someone that adorable had had relations with many people?
The tall figure kept thinking about this repeatedly until he got an answer.
Sǐndhu didn't care what Nông Plêrng's past was like, whether he had had relationships with many different people or not. He only cared about this moment, now, and the time after this, while they were together. Because he himself had also had romantic partners before. It wouldn't be fair at all to say he expected the adorable person to have never had anyone before. But...
There was that word 'but', you see.
What if after this, Nông Plêrng had him and also messed around with others?
No. Not acceptable!
Sǐndhu was experiencing a feeling of jealousy that almost drove him crazy.
The young man wanted the other party to be his alone, just as he would be Nông Plêrng's alone.
This feeling was so intense that he himself didn't ask the other party directly if he only had him now, if he didn't go to see, find, or mess with anyone else. If the adorable smile directed at him made him shut up and stay silent, he was afraid the answer would be 'yes', and his heart would ache sharply, leaving him no choice but to keep his mouth shut.
No, Nông Plêrng doesn't have anyone. We're together almost all the time.
The thought that calmed his heart.
Sǐndhu was ready to believe what the other said with all his heart. But who would believe that the words of Nông Phán had a massive effect on him?
This was a question from Nông Plêrng's sister, someone who knew her Phîi better than he did.
Had he stopped being promiscuous or not?
This question circled in his head until he couldn't sleep, couldn't think straight, had no concentration for studying, and made his friend worried.
"What is it, Wá? What happened? I saw you two were happy together." That Mix [Mik] himself dropped back into his seat.
Sǐndhu didn't want to tell anyone about this kind of issue concerning his romantic partner. He didn't want his romantic partner to be looked at with disapproving eyes; he didn't want his romantic partner to be damaged. So what the young man asked could be called beating around the bush.
"What do you think Nông Plêrng is like?"
The listener's expression immediately became hesitant.
"Your romantic partner is quite adorable. No, his face is seriously adorable. But also..." Mix [Mik] fell silent and Sǐndhu knew he wasn't finishing his sentence.
"Tell me (Kuu). I (Kuu) want to know everything about him."
His close friend made a troubled face, then let out a huge sigh, raising his hand to rub his hair vigorously.
"Fine, have it your way, Wá." He grumbled, then turned to look at him directly.
"I (Kuu) didn't want to tell you this, because I see you really love him, and moreover, he seems very attached to you. But I (Kuu) have also heard about Nông Plêrng before. You know, right, that Andrea, Âi'Drew's younger sibling, is a close friend of Nông Plêrng. I (Kuu) have overheard news several times that this youth is quite... fun-loving." It took Mix [Mik] a long pause before he could say the last word, while Sǐndhu was stunned.
"But I (Kuu) don't know with whom, just heard that he, well, isn't that difficult. But hey, you don't have to listen to what I (Kuu) say. Those things are in the past, right? Now I don't hear any news like that at all. You yourself pick him up and drop him off all the time. He's probably quit all that."
The listener must have made a very bad face, because the other party hurriedly spoke to comfort him.
Even though Sǐndhu had heard Nông Phán say it once before, hearing it again... made him even more possessive.
He didn't want anyone to touch Nông Plêrng anymore. Furthermore, he was even more troubled than before.
Was Âi'Sǐndhu good enough? Could he satisfy Nông Plêrng? Could he make him like him? And would Nông Plêrng stop at him?
Sǐndhu knew he wasn't among the top choices if someone wanted to date. He was too serious, to the point that many people said he was boring. He was the type to be attentive and do everything before speaking up, which some might find annoying. And he also liked rough sex, which caused his breakups with former partners. He felt he wasn't a perfectly good man at all. Would these many flaws make Nông Plêrng... dissatisfied with him?
"Sǐndhu, are you listening to me (Kuu), Wá?"
"I (Kuu) want to be good enough in his eyes." Sǐndhu finally managed to say it.
"You are good, Wôoi. My (Kuu) friend is damn capable. Half the faculty's girls have their eyes on you. Don't talk as if you have nothing to offer, Wá."
"I (Kuu) don't care how others see me (Kuu). Nông Plêrng alone is enough."
He said with a firm tone, because as he said, why would he care about others?
He only cared about the person he had developed feelings of "love" for.
The manner made Âi'Mix [Mik] slap his shoulder hard.
"You are good, Sǐndhu. You are damn good. Anyone who doesn't want you is utterly dim-witted. Have some confidence in yourself, Wá."
But Sǐndhu had no confidence at all. But this was his problem, not something his friend should worry about with him. So the young man turned to force a smile, slapped his shoulder back twice, and started packing his things into his bag.
"Thanks a lot, Mix."
"Yeah, well, I'm your friend."
"If you're my (Kuu) friend, I (Kuu) have a request." Sǐndhu said in such a serious tone that his friend looked him in the eye.
"What is it, Wá?"
"I (Kuu) beg you, don't talk about Nông Plêrng's matters anywhere. Whether it's a past that really happened or not, I (Kuu) don't want my romantic partner to be damaged, Wá." He didn't want anyone to gossip about his romantic partner for fun. Even if Nông Plêrng acted like he didn't care, he didn't really know if Nông Plêrng would feel bad or not.
These words made Mix [Mik] heave a heavy sigh. "You should know that you are a bloody fucking great guy. If that youth doesn't take you, he's utterly dim-witted. Yeah, I (Kuu) won't talk. And if anyone talks about it, I'll tell them to shut up. Don't worry. And if you're doubtful about anything, just go ask Nông Plêrng. Talk it out clearly. You're romantic partners anyway." Mix [Mik] said, standing up and walking out of the lecture hall together. Sǐndhu forced a smile.
"Mmm, I (Kuu) will talk."
On a day when he was more confident that Nông Plêrng felt the same.
I beg you, Khrap. I will try to be a good romantic partner. But Nông Plêrng... have only me… Can you?
***
"Âi'Sǐndhu is good. Too good. So good I (Kuu) can't help but worry. And what do you think?"
"I think the same as you. I'm scared shitless he'll get hurt badly like with Nông Bua."
Inside Mix's dorm room, the young man who owned the room was handing a water bottle to the half-Thai youth while recounting the entire conversation he had with their other friend. Even though he had promised, Andrew was considered an exception. They were very close, so close they knew almost everything, including the fact that Sǐndhu liked to do rough things in bed.
The matter about Práo Plêrng also came from Andrew's mouth, after all.
Right now, the two close friends, worried sick about the other, had to consult like this.
"You talk as if they have to break up." Mix [Mik] dropped down to sit beside him, asking in a worried tone.
"I (Kuu) don't know either. But as I (Kuu) told you, Nông Plêrng is quite the type who doesn't get attached to anyone. I (Kuu) have known him for three years now, and I've never seen him stop for anyone. Until he met Sǐndhu. Do you think I (Kuu) wasn't shocked, Wá, that day when I (Kuu) walked back and saw Nông Plêrng sitting on Sǐndhu's lap and hugging him tightly? I (Kuu) even thought, what have I (Kuu) done?"
Yes, that day when Plêrng went after Sǐndhu, out of curiosity, Andrew himself had followed back to look and saw those two having a relationship beyond friends. When he told the person next to him about it, this side also said that those two were dating, making the person who had pushed his friend onto that side equally stunned.
The half-Thai youth knew a little about what Nông Plêrng was like. But with Sǐndhu, who seemed worlds away from his usual interests, he hadn't thought much of it. Besides, their friends were straight men, and Nông Plêrng had never had any news of chasing after any straight men. Just asking him to take him to his room probably wouldn't lead to anything.
He only found out later that Sǐndhu was dead drunk and pinned Nông Plêrng down, and they just became romantic partners, from Mix's mouth.
Therefore, the root cause is me (Kuu), isn't it?
"At first when I (Kuu) found out, I (Kuu) was also surprised. Look at Nông Bua, and then look at Nông Plêrng. If you compare them, one is like a clear, calm stream, the other is hot-tempered, living up to his name. Who would have thought Sǐndhu would set his heart like this?" Mix [Mik] continued speaking, leaning his head back against the bed behind him.
"Is it that bad?"
"Don't know if it's that bad, just know he likes him like crazy."
"Sǐndhu, when he loves someone, he loves for real."
"Not like you, then." Mix [Mik] asked while shaking his head, which made the half-Thai youth pull his arm in and raise his hand to wrap around his shoulder.
"Well, you and I (Kuu) aren't romantic partners." Andrew said laughingly, which made Mix [Mik] shrug.
"Yeah, we're not."
Even though they had no secrets from their friend, there was one thing Sǐndhu didn't know.... the relationship between these two friends.
Friends who met through Sǐndhu in their first year.
Friends who accidentally had a one-night stand.
Friends who accidentally became fuck buddies.
Friends who accidentally realized they had been like this for four years now.
"So how would you know if I (Kuu) love you for real or not?" Andrew asked jokingly, while Mix [Mik] laughed lowly, looking at the hand of the half-Thai guy that was pulling his shirt up above his stomach. He didn't say anything, just responded to the unfinished topic.
"We haven't finished talking about Sǐndhu."
"So, the conclusion is he wants to know if Nông Plêrng has only him, right?"
"Probably."
"Then what if I (Kuu) told you I (Kuu) have a way to test it?" Andrew said with a serious expression that contrasted with his two hands which had pulled his friend's shirt up to his upper arms, until Mix [Mik] also raised his hands, letting the other pull it over his head, while also reaching to pull the hem of the other's shirt, until Andrew easily took it off and threw it on the floor.
But Mix [Mik] narrowed his eyes as if he already knew what method that was.
"I (Kuu) don't want Sǐndhu to get hurt, Wôoi." Andrew said with an equally serious tone.
"I (Kuu) think the same as you. But if he gets hurt now, it's better than dating for a year like last time. Do you think this time Sǐndhu will bounce back as quickly as with Nông Bua?"
"No."
They could both see that Sǐndhu had almost given his heart to Nông Plêrng already, faster than the last time, incomparably so. If Sǐndhu took almost a year of dating Nông Bua to look at her with loving eyes, Nông Plêrng took just over a month. If they let it go on longer than this... he would be hurt for sure.
"Yeah, so what do you think?"
"Sigh, do whatever. I (Kuu) know you worry about Sǐndhu just like I (Kuu) do." Mix [Mik] said, and his eyes widened a bit when he was pushed down to lie on the floor.
"But it's your turn today, right?"
"Yeah, don't try to weasel out. It was my turn last time." As soon as this topic came up, Andrew immediately made a face, making the person lying under him sigh.
"Well, yours is big, you know."
"No negotiations, Wá. It's my turn to do you while you lie still." The half-Thai youth said while slapping his hip to make him lift his butt, until Mix [Mik] himself did as instructed, even though his mouth was still mumbling complaints.
"I (Kuu) should go find some cute kids who let me (Kuu) do them every time."
"Then go. Since when did I (Kuu) ever stop you?"
Mix [Mik] shrugged again, then opened his arms, accepting the other into his embrace. He didn't answer whether he would go or not. It was just as they said, they had accidentally gotten together since first year. Their mouths said they weren't tied down, but neither of them had gone to find anyone else as they claimed, not one bit. Even though Andrew had choices, he himself still "accidentally" ended up with him.
Now that Sǐndhu himself has also realized that a guy can be with a guy, once this matter is over, he planned to tell him the secret as well.
Well, after Andrew tests something first, that is.
***
I have to go to the faculty today, should finish in the evening. I'll call you later.
The weekend holiday arrived again, and Práo Plêrng himself had a pile of overdue reports and homework. He knew it was time to clear them up. But initially, he had intended to go sit and do it in Phîi Sǐndhu's room. When that person said he had to go to the faculty for group work today, he deflated.
Buzz
"Should I go take a nap and wait in Phîi Sǐndhu's room, Wá?"
Plêrng happened to have the adorable keychain in his line of sight. He was strongly hesitating whether he should haul his laptop and books up to the room upstairs. But even if he went, he'd be alone anyway, until he had to let out a long sigh.
"Acting like I've never been alone before."
It's just that recently, there's always been someone with him, that's all.
The freedom-loving person who seemed to be slowly bound by invisible shackles around him, struggling without escape, threw himself down to roll on the sofa. He looked at the multitude of unfinished work and let out another huge sigh.
"Fine, better hurry up and do it. Then when Phîi Sǐndhu gets back, we'll have time to play."
Having resolved himself like that, he pulled the laptop onto his lap and started working on the tasks he had left for a month. But...
Knock Knock Knock
"Phîi Sǐndhu!"
The person who said he didn't love him at alllll shot up from the sofa, pushed the computer onto the table, then strode quickly towards the door, fixing his hair a bit, pulling his wide-necked shirt to hang properly, checking his appearance, then plastered on a sweet smile and opened the door without checking the peephole to see who was knocking.
Early morning like this, only Phîi Sǐndhu would come. Probably came to see him before going in.
Ack!
"Phîi Sǐndhu?"
Thud
Plêrng had called out in a sweet, whiny voice, but instead his eyes widened in surprise, because the person standing handsomely at his door wasn't the stern-faced, glasses-wearing guy, but a handsome guy with smoky eyes who was confident he came equipped with heavy artillery.
"Phîi Andrew!"
The man he had wanted for three years was standing at his door!
The person who was giving him a handsome smile and saying in a voice so pleasing it was intoxicating.
"I have a request for Nông Plêrng, Khrap... something only Nông Plêrng can do."
So what will Nai Práo Plêrng do, except...
"Please come in, Khrap, Phîi."
Well, hey! I've had my eye on my target for three whole years!
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