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Orange coals emitted intense heat upward to the grill above until hot steam became visible, and they turned the red meat into a beautiful brown color. Fat on the meat danced jiggle. A fragrant aroma wafted throughout the entire Japanese barbecue-style restaurant. Customers scooped cooked meat onto plates for the person seated opposite them while they successively placed new batches of meat onto the grill.
“Sky, eat it. I will grill it myself.”
“Phai, you eat it. I will wait for the soup first.”
Phai did not grill for the young man, but the young man himself only picked up pieces for the other person's plate ever since the meat arrived at the table. He rarely dipped any into sauce and put it into mouth.
Naphon swore that he truly did not favor the big man who came to help carry things. He merely felt grateful because, throughout the time that passed, Phai bought various items and brought them right to him even though he never asked. If they excluded the early periods when he took them to feed the dog, he ate them every time. Now one could say that he repaid the kindness, and it was not favoritism at all.
Who am I making excuses to? Sky thought.
The young man shook his head. Then he focused intently on flipping the meat on the grill. He no longer sought an answer for why he hurried his friend to finish work yesterday so that today he could have free time to buy things, and moreover things available for purchase around the faculty.
“Eat some too. You lost weight since your last illness.”
“It came back to normal already,” Sky argued. He recovered from illness over several months ago. He did not lose much weight at that time. But Phai shook his head.
“Trust me. I measure accurately.”
“Were you a weighing scale in a past life or something?” he teased right back.
“Heh-heh. Just my eyes and two hands are precise enough. Your waist is twenty-eight inches, right?” Sky paused the hand that held the tongs for the meat. He looked into Phai's eyes. Then he thought not to continue the topic if he did not want it to turn back on him. He already knew that it would veer into matters below the navel for sure. But he could not help arguing, or perhaps he just wanted to talk.
“You sneaked a peek at the edge of my pants, didn't you?”
“Why would I sneak a peek? If you take them off, I can measure directly with my hands. But I tell you that I did not look. I hug my own every day, so how could I not know? Come on! Eat quickly!” If anything were in his mouth right now, he would surely choke. Did Phai forget that they sat in the middle of a restaurant? Yet Phai still picked up a piece of meat and held it right to his mouth. Phai waved it around to entice him to open wide. But why would he yield so easily?
“Phai, do not play around.”
“I am not playing. This is real feeding. Open your mouth quickly.”
“Phai!” His cheeks flushed hot to a frightening degree. He tried to use a stern voice. But how could this man feel intimidated? Moreover, Phai dipped the meat near the edge of his lips until he had to clench his own lips tight.
“If you do not open your mouth, I will pry it open with my mouth instead.”
“Uh...excuse me, the miso soup is ready.” Even Sky, who managed emotions well, felt embarrassed. What about the female server who nearly choked on her saliva? She bowed her head and spoke while she placed two bowls of soup down. Then she hurried back in retreat. But nothing could be done about this shameless man.
“Eat quickly. Do not make me force you.”
“Everyone in the restaurant stares.”
“Then let them stare. I see only Sky.”
The listener stared wide-eyed. His heart itched tingly as if someone threw rotten eggs at him. He tried to tell himself not to believe the words of this slippery eel of a man. He did not know how many people this man fed sweet words to before. One could not trust him. But those enchanting honey-colored eyes looked straight at him. Those eyes smiled at him. Moreover, Phai insisted on feeding him.
“If Sky does not eat, then I will not eat.”
The young man could do nothing except open his mouth and accept the large piece of cooled meat into it.
“See? I told you they are romantic partners!”
Suddenly a faint voice sounded from behind, so they turned to look. Then they found that the server talked with her friend. She avoided his gaze right away. So he whipped his head back to look at the big man.
“Everyone misunderstood.”
“Mm. That is the real misunderstanding.”
Sky should have grown accustomed to Phai's words that implied they were nothing to each other. But he could not stop his eyes from dropping low. Thus he missed the sly smile from the man who raised his hand to call the same server who failed to dodge in time. So she walked close to the table once more.
“Would you like anything else?”
“No. My romantic partner misunderstood, so I will correct it for her.”
“Huh?”
Why do you feel disappointed, Sky? Sky thought.
Sky bowed his head and flipped the fully cooked meat with more force. He pretended not to care where Phai positioned their status. But the big man grinned widely, and....
“This is my Mia. Not my romantic partner.”
Hey!
Even the calmest person would panic in this situation. He lifted his face to look at the speaker. Phai grinned broadly. Phai set down his chopsticks. Then Phai placed his hand on Sky's head and ruffled gently with fondness. But Phai's mouth told the young woman who gaped in shock.
“Then I request garlic fried rice for my Mia in one bowl.”
“Uh...yes-yes. In just a moment.” The server nodded several times. Then she hurried to place the order. This contrasted with the calm person who regained composure.
“What did you just say!”
“Huh! Where did I say anything wrong? Does Sky want to say he is my Phûa? But Sky never stayed on top even once. I am sure this status is correct. Or do you want to switch....mmph-mmph-mmph.” Before the big man finished speaking, the young one grabbed fresh vegetables and stuffed them into Phai's mouth quickly. Both cheeks burned red. His eyes glared until they nearly popped from their sockets. But the talkative one merely held his hand, and....
Smack!
“You could have just said you wanted to feed me,” Phai said. Sky yanked his hand away no differently than if he touched something hot.
What should he do with this man?
“Come on! Do not just get shy. Move your hands and mouth too. Or do you want me to feed you?”
The young man lifted his face to meet eyes once more and found sparkling eyes from the one who added....
“You make such a blushing face, and it makes my heart race badly.” He could do nothing except bow his head and shove meat into his mouth to escape that gaze.
By the way, did this restaurant put too much sugar in the dipping sauce? Why did it taste so sweet?
Perhaps his tongue did not go wrong. Instead his heart went astray far away.
“Wait for me just a moment.”
***
Sky did not think he would visit this place a second time...the condominium where he lost his virginity.
After they ate until full to bursting, Phai invited him to watch a movie next. He agreed. But then one phone call came in. He refused it. Yet the caller persisted. He learned only after hanging up that a friend called to invite him to a birthday party held that night. When he tried to say he would return first, Phai dragged him onto the car once more. Then Phai drove straight to this location.
“I will stop to pick up the gift. Oh, it is here. I will take it to the host. We will stop to greet quickly, and then I will take you back to the dorm.” The speaker led him into the living room. So Sky swept his gaze around.
He had not come here for about five months.
Soon he would reach half a year knowing Phai.
He paid no attention to anything on that first visit. He only knew he wanted this man to finish quickly and to go home. Now he finally had time to survey. This room seemed larger than a typical condominium. It separated the living room from the kitchen. At the far end lay a bedroom with a large bed. Everything decorated beautifully like in a home magazine. Items stayed sparse until it did not resemble a real living space.
“Phai, you go to the friend's birthday party. I can return by myself.”
His heart weakened and wilted. "No. I want to stay with Sky more.” Phai said it outright. Phai walked back with a long-shaped paper bag that one could guess contained some kind of liquor. Sharp eyes shone with pleading until the listener thought....
“Besides, your things stay with me too. I will not let you return alone. We will stop just a moment. Showing face a bit suffices.” The young man added this. He seemed afraid Sky would flee back first. So Sky nodded even though his gaze fixed only on the living room sofa. It meant nothing. He just dared not meet eyes lest it lead to misunderstanding that he mattered.
“Does Sky like this room?” Phai followed his gaze. So he nodded quickly.
“It looks nice.”
“Then should I give it to you?”
“Huh!?” The listener turned to look. Then he averted his eyes quickly. He dared not interpret what that gaze meant.
“I mean it seriously. I do not use this room anymore. I will give it to Sky. Then I will move to stay at Sky's dorm too.” The speaker reached to hold his hand. Then he grasped it tight.
“Are you stupid? My room is tiny.”
“But why stay in a big room if no one stays with you?”
“Then find one. Is not it for luring people to fuck and discard anyway?” Why would he not know that an empty room like this served purposes other than living? These days they stayed together often until he knew Phai did not come to him. Then Phai returned home to sleep. So what use did this pretty room serve if not for that sort of thing?
“No. I want only this one person.” The big man leaned his face close to rub cheek against cheek. The hand that grasped his forced him to touch the chest.
“Did Sky hear that?”
“If I did not hear, then you would die.”
The listener laughed. But he refused to release the hand that forced him to feel the heartbeat. Meanwhile the young man merely stood still. He felt that lump of flesh inside beat rapidly no different from his own. Then his heart beat even harder until it thumped loudly in his head. This happened when the one who kissed his cheek several times slid lips to the flushed red ear.
“It says it likes Sky.”
The young man bit his lips tight. He lifted eyes to look. Then he dropped them again.
“I...” But no words came out.
He could say nothing. He merely bowed his head. The thought that Phai would grow bored soon vanished somewhere. He did not know where. He heard Phai's voice as if from afar.
“Lift your face a bit.”
“Why?”
“Because I want to kiss Sky.”
He could keep his head bowed. Phai could force his chin up. But Naphon lifted his face slowly. He looked into the honey-colored eyes. Then he parted his lips first. When the scorching touch pressed close, Sky merely closed his eyes...in consent.
His heart could no longer resist stubbornly.
Plop!
“Mmm.”
Lips sucked and pulled toward each other to create a gentle rhythm. They parted slightly to welcome the hot tip of tongue that demanded more, heavier, fiercer. Before Sky realized it, someone pushed him until his hips pressed tight against the large dining table. The big man held him in embrace. A wine bottle pushed aside onto the table. Two large hands pulled his legs to wrap around the slim hips. They pushed bodies together until no space remained between them.
Smack....smack....
Kissing sounds echoed in harmony with faint moans from throats. Then Sky lifted up to sit on the table edge.
“Does Sky need to hurry back to the dorm?” Phai asked in a hoarse voice.
“The birthday party...”
“Screw it!”
The young man merely looked at the fierce expression of the big man. Those eyes brimmed full with desire. That made the young man take the initiative to kiss. He whispered in a trembling voice.
“I can skip morning class.”
“Damn it!!!”
At those words, Phai growled low. Phai grabbed the young man's shirt collar. With one strong pull, Phai removed it and draped it over a chair. Meanwhile the owner of the shirt slid his face close. He offered sweet lips right there. The new kiss grew fiercer than before, hotter than before. No one cared anymore that clear fluid leaked until it smeared the lips. Only the touch desired even closer than it already lay.
They would have kissed endlessly if Sky had not unbuttoned every button on Phai's shirt completely. The young man pulled away briefly to yank the shirt off his body like a starving wild animal.
“It gets in the way so much.”
Not Sky got in the way, but the jeans he wore did.
The young man properly pushed the young one up to sit on the table. Then he stripped the jeans as if tearing them off until they piled at one foot. He followed by removing his own pants. He flung them aside carelessly. This freed the not-so-small member to the outside world.
Snap!
“Do not tease me!” Suddenly Sky reached to grasp it. The tall body growled loudly. He pushed the lower body close. He forced Sky's two hands to grip both rigid shafts and rub them together. Moans from both echoed loudly. Then they turned into muffled sounds in throats when hot lips crushed down once more.
“Does it feel good? Does it feel good, Phai?”
Amid the wet sloshing sounds of fluid, Sky whispered close to lips. Sky's eyes brimmed teary with emotion. This called forth loving passion from the watcher who moved hips harder into soft hands. He sucked Sky's lips heavily then pulled away to nuzzle the fragrant neck.
“It feels damn good.”
Once Phai said that, the listener moved hands harder. He used the overflowing fluid as lubricant to help them rub even closer than before. Then he jolted when sharp teeth bit the nipple lightly. A heavy lick followed until he could not hold back the moan. And today Sky did not want to hold back like always.
“Gel?”
Phai muttered impatiently and painfully as if he did not want to pull away from here at all. That made the listener shift up onto the table a bit more. He released hands that held them together. He spread both feet wide. This exposed the tight narrow passage that clenched impatiently.
Sky could no longer endure it.
“No need.” He said this while sending three fingers into his mouth. Saliva coated them until soaked. Meanwhile he felt the gleaming eyes that watched without blinking.
The other made him feel like the most attractive and sexy person.
Sky knew he was not, and never would be. But Phai made him feel that way. So he spread his feet even wider. He looked at the sharp stressed face that furrowed brows frighteningly. Then he sent a hand to the rear passage. He rubbed lightly and slipped finger inside, but....
“Come here.”
“Mmph! Phai, wait, do not, do not....Gasp!!!”
Suddenly Sky's hips lifted high until legs floated in the air. Eyes widened. Not only did his hand pull away, but a hot tongue tip replaced it. It licked the tight passage hard. This sent thrilling shivers throughout his body. He felt dizzy. But Phai did not stop. He felt it probe inside. It sucked hard until his waist nearly lifted. He could not believe Phai would do this much.
“Mmph, Phai, do not, do not. Ungh!” Sky gripped the other's hair tight. He let both fingers and tongue open the way until everything spun chaotically. His body twisted back and forth. Hot breath burned like fire.
“Enough, enough...I cannot take it...I want to come! Hic!”
He begged without shame. That made the one busy with pleasuring pull up to meet eyes.
Sky sent two hands to grasp cheeks tight. Then he said in a hoarse voice.
“I want you. I want you now.”
“You idiot!”
The listener's eyes widened hugely. The stressed furrowed face grew even darker. Two hands gripped the young man's hips tight. He rubbed the scorching part back and forth at the entrance. The receiver's face flushed deep red. Then he jolted with a gasp when heat hotter than anything thrust deep inside. Slowly but arousing. This left the young man shaking his head side to side. He panted until it echoed through the wide room. Then he twitched when it pressed in to the hilt.
“I want to cherish you more than this, but I cannot endure anymore!” Phai growled close to ear. Then he began pulling body out almost fully before thrusting in anew. Each time the slim body shuddered. Two hands hugged the strong neck tight. Two legs wrapped around the waist again. This opened the way for the big man to go even deeper.
“Huee, more, harder, I...haek, haek, I am fine...I am fine! Ahh!”
He heard Phai curse in several languages. Phai plunged into his body repeatedly. Deep until he could barely breathe. He merely looked at the ceiling that shook blurry like his emotions.
They ignored the table legs that creaked. Bodies burned hot and slick with sweat. Room temperature rose frighteningly. The scent of lust filled everywhere. They cared only who lay in embrace now.
“Phai, it tingles....hue, I cannot take it...I cannot take it.”
“Go ahead, Sky. No matter how many times, I will make you cum myself!!!”
Now their emotions resembled giant waves that swept everything into endless depths of desire. Bodies pressed tight together. Mouths met again and again. The final rhythm tossed bodies into floating bliss. Pleasure came within reach.
“Phai, kiss me, kiss...hueeeee.”
Soon moans echoed loudly. The young one jolted with a gasp. He released every drop of emotion completely. The big man did the same as he clenched teeth tight. He collapsed against the warm body. He released thick fluid into the scorching heat until it overflowed.
“Hack, hack, hack.”
The intense climax left even Phai with no strength to move for a long rest. Panting breaths echoed through the room. They let tight embrace hold each other's bodies.
Until they controlled emotions steady, the big man pulled away slightly. He held the young man's face up to meet eyes.
“Sky belongs to me.”
This time the one who always tried to escape closed eyes. He leaned face against the other's forehead. He whispered back like a sob.
“Yes. I belong to you.”
Sky admitted that his heart surrendered.
***
“Will you come inside with me?”
“I do not know anyone. I would rather wait here.”
Phai's car drove to a large mansion on vast grounds where no one worried about party music disturbing neighbors. Along the way the dashboard doll sat with head bowed and eyes distant. Cheeks stayed red. The driver stayed in the same emotional state. Until he parked behind several dozen luxury cars that arrived earlier, Phai spoke the invitation.
Of course rejection followed.
The young man felt glad it turned out that way. He did not want anyone to see his young one make this face.
“Then I will go quickly. Just a moment.” The speaker said this while he leaned to press a hard kiss on soft cheek.
“I ask for ten minutes. No, five minutes suffice, and then we return to the dorm together.” Phai said this quickly. Phai reached to grab the bag holding wine that stayed miraculously intact despite their intense heat. Then he got out of the car quickly. He headed straight into the building as if eager to greet the host briefly and return to cuddle the one who said he could skip morning class.
“My heart will explode.”
Once out of Sky's sight, the young man slumped back against the wall from exhaustion. He rubbed his face many times. His mind still thought of the other young man's cuteness.
If that cursed host did not call again, he would not show up at this crazy party at all.
“Phai! Phai came, guys!”
But Phai had no time to think more than that. Someone recognized him. That person yelled to tell people in the house. Then he did not know how many hands dragged him into the party. No need to guess how much these guys drank. Their flushed angry faces showed they reached peak. So he merely asked for the host.
“Where is Off?”
“Inside, Phai. Come quick. The party cannot be fun without you.”
Yeah, usually he came to liven things up. But now I want to get lively with the one in the car!
Phai saw his fate clearly. He had no way to return in five minutes.
Once alone, Sky lifted two hands to cover his flushed face. He just realized he let his heart slip to this playful man. The second he received the kiss, his heart shook until it nearly burst. This never happened since high school, fifth year. But that time one could say it happened because it marked his first close contact with anyone. This time differed. On the first time he slept with Phai, he felt only disgust and judged him a cursed person who never considered others' feelings.
Nowhere did it say that to make him leave a party one must sleep with him. But now Sky liked this cursed person.
“Damn it! What the hell did I do?”
He slept with Phai to chase him away quickly. But it turned into his own heart slipping.
Sky did not know how long he sat like that. He would have sunk into his thoughts forever if not for the urge to use the bathroom. Only then did he lift his face to check the time. He found the car owner gone nearly twenty minutes. But he expected that. Coming to a birthday party meant no quick in-and-out.
“This house is huge! How rich is this?” The young man tilted his head up to look at the big house. He glanced around and saw luxury cars rarer than at a motor show. Then he decided to get out of the car.
“Excuse me. Where is the bathroom?”
He followed the music into the house. He swept his gaze around. He saw only youths both male and female dressed to the nines. They grinned at peak enjoyment. In several party corners people already hugged and kissed. He looked for someone who seemed sober enough to talk. Once he knew the way, he hurried to handle business. Then he would return to wait in the car.
Being in a party like this brought back old memories he wanted to forget.
“Phai! Phai! How could you do this to me?”
But before he did that, he heard a name that made him turn to look. Then he merely pressed lips together.
Phai stayed held back by a pretty woman with a great figure. So the young man nearly spun around to leave. But the big man himself hugged that woman back. So he stood frozen in place. He knew well he should return to the car. But he decided to walk close to the room wall. He used dim lighting to watch that pair without blinking.
But before he did that, he heard a name that made him turn to look. Then he merely pressed lips together.
Phai stayed held back by a pretty woman with a great figure. So the young man nearly spun around to leave. But the big man himself hugged that woman back. So he stood frozen in place. He knew well he should return to the car. But he decided to walk close to the room wall. He used dim lighting to watch that pair without blinking.
“Phai, I missed you. I missed you so much. You said you liked me, so how could you leave me lonely like this?”
Sky stayed in a dark corner. But those two stood in a lit spot enough to show the young woman wrap around the big man's neck. She pressed body close while Phai did not push her away. The handsome face....
Grinned widely.
“Yes-yes. I like you.”
“The most?”
“The most.”
“Giggle-giggle. This man is so cute.”
Sky could not stay to listen anymore. He merely walked out from the party. Two hands clenched into tight fists, but....
“Why did not Payu come?”
“Want him? I heard he has a romantic partner now. Phai looks good, playful, and hits the spot best.”
The young man turned to look at a pair that walked past him.
“Did you get him already?”
“Phai is not hard! If you do not tie him down, he accepts everyone. But looks like tonight you go without. Look there. Someone got him before you.”
“If I ask to join, will he mind?”
“You have to try. But I heard someone did before.”
Sky could not listen more than that. He hurried back to the car. He slammed the door shut. He lifted two hands to cover his face tight. But this felt different from before he went for the bathroom. Instead it felt like thousands of knives stabbed his heart. How could he believe Phai liked him as he claimed?
A man like this said “like” to everyone who went to bed with him!
His “like” went to only one person. But Phai's “like” went to everyone.
“Why stupidly repeat it, Sky? Why?”
The young man leaned face down almost to knees. Shoulders shook. He let out faint sobs.
Why stupidly let his heart slip like this!
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