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Perspective - Ae (Inthach)
I am feeling frustrated. No, that's not right. When I first arrived at Paragon, I was in a really good mood. I'm not sure if it was because of the person who drove me here, but as soon as I gathered with my friends to celebrate Ai'Pond's birthday, I gradually started to get irritated... No, I'm not upset because each of my friends is staring at Pete and me as if they have one mind. Yes though, their looks are exactly what I'd expect from Ai'Pond's crowd.
[[Translator's Note: "พารากอน" (Paragon) - Refers to Siam Paragon, a well-known shopping mall in Bangkok.]]
However, what really makes me want to confront someone beginning with…
It starts with Ai'Sun, one of our close friends from high school, asking Pete.
"So, Pete, do you have a girlfriend yet?"
What business is it of his?
Now, Ai'Pete turns to look at me, and his expression seems full of both guilt and discomfort. I already know he likes me, and okay, I also feel more than just friendship for him. Even though we haven't said anything clearly about our relationship, I really don't like it when he quietly answers...
"No, I don't."
I become even more annoyed when Ai'Sun responds with:
"Then be my romantic partner for a day."
Clink.
I have already frozen, chopsticks in hand. I don't pay attention to Ai'Dīe's loud protests because I am speechless, just as I feel the heat building up in my chest. I shoot a sharp glance at Ai'Sun, but he doesn't seem to care, only saying that he wants to take a picture with Pete to make his girlfriend jealous.
Damn it. If you're trying to make your romantic partner jealous, then what the hell are you messing around with Ai'Pete for?
I don't even know what I'm thinking. All I know is that my grip on the chopsticks has tightened a little more.
"Go find someone else. Pete is a guy—he's not suitable to be your partner," I interrupt immediately, my eyes still fixed on Ai'Sun, who smiles confidently and replies with a sure voice:
"No worries, my partner is a guy too. That means Pete is perfect."
I have no idea what my expression is toward my close friend right now. All I know is that I'm so irritated that I want to punch him. I realize how stupid that thought is, but I can't help glaring at him. I don't even care that Ai'Pond and Ai'Dīe are arguing nearby. Right now, all I care about is Ai'Sun, who is now raising his eyebrows at me.
I never knew that Ai'Sun likes men. I've never felt jealous of him for being the friend I can confidently call extremely handsome. It's no surprise that he became the Campus Star. Right now though, I'm feeling an inexplicable possessiveness toward Ai'Pete, knowing that Ai'Sun has the right to like him.
I admit it. When the two of them stand together, their different styles of handsomeness make anyone turn their heads to look.
This is one of the few times I feel… Inferior.
I don't want to give Ai'Pete to anyone!
In that instant, I feel both grateful and annoyed with Ai'Dīe, who speaks up.
"If you guys are going to fight, do it outside the restaurant. I go to school around here, and honestly, I'm embarrassed... And Ai'Ae, if you're possessive, just say you won't allow it. Ai'Sun, if you're going to ask for something, ask the owner first."
I'm thankful to Ai'Dīe for speaking as if Ai'Pete belongs to me, but I'm also annoyed that his words remind me again that we're still nothing official. I don't have the right to be possessive or to decide whether he takes a photo or not, or with whom he does it. So, when Ai'Sun asks…
"What's up, man? Let me borrow Pete for a bit…"
That's when I respond: "Pete isn't mine. Ask him yourself."
I am too irritated to speak politely, too annoyed to care how Ai'Pete feels I just turn away while Ai'Sun, grinning ear to ear in a way that really gets on my nerves, hops over Ai'Dīe to sit next to Pete, even leaning his face close to my Khun-chai's cheek. Out of the corner of my eye, I can see the two of them taking a photo together, but looking straight ahead, I see several women glancing their way.
I know that these days, women love seeing two men together, and an image like this probably makes them so excited they let out squeals of delight.
I know that if I were the one pressing my cheek against Ai'Pete's right now, there definitely wouldn't be any squealing.
What the hell is wrong with me, thinking about such pointless things? What's wrong with me that I'm getting jealous of Ai'Sun's face? Why on earth do I want to pull Ai'Pete back to my side?
I'm so irritated I can hardly stand it.
So, when those two finish taking their photo, I quickly shove chopsticks into Ai'Pete's hand and use my other arm to pull him even closer to me.
"Now that the picture's done, you can get back to eating."
Ai'Pete turns to look at me with eyes that seem slightly apologetic. I think he is afraid I am angry about something—like him getting all chummy with my friend. No though, I'm not upset about that. It is the closeness between him and my friend that I don't like, so much so that I have to turn back to the pot in the middle of the table.
Whoosh.
"Eat up. You're too skinny already," I say, using my ladle, now full of pork, shrimp, squid, and tofu, to dump everything into Ai'Pete's bowl in one go. Then I take his plate and place a serving of jade noodles onto it.
"Uh… Ae…" Ai'Pete calls my name softly, prompting me to shoot him a glance.
Pete has a questioning look in his eyes, but he remains silent, bowing his head and quietly eating what I have served him. As he does, I feel myself slowly calm down.
Ai'Pete isn't doing anything with Ai'Sun, so why am I letting it bother me this much? Why am I getting so irritated, especially since we aren't anything official yet?
Grip.
That thought leads me to slide my hand under the table and place it on Ai'Pete's thigh, giving it a gentle squeeze. I feel him jolt slightly, turning to look at me in surprise, though the others at the table don't notice—they are too busy laughing at Ai'Pond's jokes.
Pete's startled expression is so endearing that I can't help but smile at him. I give his thigh another soft squeeze before letting go.
"Eat up."
That's all I say, even though I am beginning to understand my feelings more clearly.
I'm jealous of him… aren't I?
After the confusing dinner finally ends, I tell my friends—some of whom are heading home while others are off to drink—that I'll take Ai'Pete home. Now, we are walking quietly side by side. I can sense him glancing at me several times, making me turn to look back at him.
"Why are you looking at me?"
"Ae... Are you angry with me?" Pete asks softly.
I hesitate for a moment before shaking my head. I can't quite grasp what I am feeling. I don't know what to say about this strange, new emotion that I am experiencing. In the past, I have been annoyed thinking that Ai'Pete liked Ai'Pond, but that is nothing compared to seeing Ai'Sun get close to him. Now, I just felt… weird, I guess.
The usually Indifferent Shorty in our group of friends is starting to slip away.
Sigh.
I let out a soft sigh as we reach my Khun-chai's car. I watch him unlock the door and slip inside, his eyes still on me before forcing a smile my way.
I can tell that I must have made him worry needlessly about something just now.
"See you later, then."
Grab.
However, before he can shut the door, I grab it tightly. He looks up at me, surprised, as I lean in, acting on instinct. I reach out and touch his cheek—the same cheek that had just been pressed against Ai'Sun's—and I start… rubbing it.
Not harshly, like wiping down a car for my dad, but gently, stroking up and down as if I were scratching a cat under its chin. I can feel Ai'Pete's cheek getting warmer by the second, but I don't care. I keep rubbing, as if I can erase Ai'Sun's touch from his soft... cheek.
"Uh… Ae, what are you doing?"
"Nothing," I reply, but I keep rubbing.
My other hand moves up to brush his soft hair away from his forehead. Seeing Ai'Pete's startled yet blushing face makes me feel inexplicably better.
"Uh... Ae..." Ai'Pete seems at a loss for words, but he doesn't say anything about me still stroking his cheek and head.
If I'm not imagining it, he might even like what I have been doing. It isn't just his cheek. His ears are turning red too. His eyes, which are looking at me, seem to tremble slightly... and I can't resist.
Before I even realize it, I am leaning in closer. My eyes are locked on the trembling gaze of his, and my destination is probably his eyelids, but…
"Yes, I understand. I'll head to the office right away..."
The sound of high heels and a woman's hurried voice makes me straighten up abruptly. I turn to look in the direction of the noise and see a woman rushing toward her car, snapping me back to reality.
I was about to kiss Ai'Pete in public again.
"Take care," I quickly cut the moment short, pushing his door closed.
Grab.
This time, it is Ai'Pete who stops the door, his voice trembling as he seems to gather all his courage.
"Wh-what were you doing just now, Ae?"
I pause for a second, turn my face away, and mutter softly.
"Don't let your cheek touch anyone else's cheek again." That's all I say before taking advantage of his stunned silence to shut the door.
I step back and look through the tinted window, where I can only make out his shadow inside. I have no idea what Ai'Pete is thinking right now, but I turn and walk back into the mall. He pulls out of the parking spot, and I stand watching until his car disappears from sight before I whisper to myself: "I might be more possessive than I thought."
Perspective - Pete (Pitchaya)
I admit that I still think about Pond's birthday. Ae's touch still lingers on my cheek and forehead. At first, I was worried that Ae might be angry with me about something, but I understood from the last words he said to me before closing the door.
I'm not fooling myself, am I, thinking that... Ae is protective of me?
This thought fills me with a strange mix of joy and anxiety.
I'm happy if this is true, but I'm anxious that it might be just wishful thinking. Yet, this feeling sticks with me, making me sleep well for several nights.
Now, I'm on break, and I no longer have an excuse to go see Ae. I'm slightly nervous, wondering if Nong Chomphu will come around during this time. I know it's not right to think about her like this, and I'm aware it's not ideal to be planning to give a birthday gift, especially when... I really just want to see the birthday person's friend.
Then, something makes me feel a bit worse. Tinn called me yesterday, making my heart race. It is not because I like him, but because I am anxious about what I'll learn.
"I've followed up on what you asked for. Want to meet up?"
Phii Trump disappearing hasn't made me any less suspicious. On the contrary, the thought of finding out what he did with the money is making me more anxious. Thus, I agreed to meet up with Tinn.
Knowing is better than not knowing.
"Can we meet at the university? I'll be there tomorrow." I say.
Tinn doesn't object, so I arrange to meet him at the football field since I'll probably be hanging around there.
Thus here I am today, standing at the football field and watching the entire team practicing. In my hand is a bag with a small gift box, and my gaze is fixed on the person passing the ball in the middle of the field. Even though the heat in Pai is enough to drench them in sweat, I think Ae must be too happy playing football to care about the weather.
Although I already called to let him know I'd be here, it wouldn't be a good idea to pull him out during practice. Therefore, I sit by the stands, watching him.
And... I smile.
I know it might seem crazy to be happy just watching someone play sports, but I'm genuinely happy. Seeing the person I secretly love standing right there, and just thinking that he... uh... might feel something for me too makes my heart swell. It feels good, like I can do anything, and I think I've managed to fix some of my bad habits.
Since getting to know Ae, I think I've slowly changed. It may not be obvious enough for others to notice, but I believe I've changed for the better.
Bring, Bring
Then my phone rings, pulling my eyes away from Ae.
"Yes, Tinn?"
"I'm parked near the football field. Where are you?"
"Ah, where are you parked, Tinn? I will come find you."
Once I know where he is, I leave the football field, my heart pounding, thinking that if Ae were with me, I would feel better. However, I also realize that I have caused him trouble regarding P'Trump several times, so this time I think I will try to rely on myself.
I walk to find Tinn and soon spot his Porsche parked under the shade of a tree beside the field. He must have seen me because he steps out of the car with a brown envelope, and I feel a slight apprehension. Besides the envelope, he also has another rectangular box in his hand.
"Do you want to talk in the car? It's really hot."
"No, it's alright. It shouldn't take long."
I smile faintly. It's not that I don't want to get in his car, but I want to find out what's going on as quickly as possible. Tinn doesn't mind, he just moves closer and hands me the envelope. When I reach to take it... he pulls it back.
"Before you find out what you want to know, tell me first what you are involved in with this piece of social trash."
I can only flinch and look at Tinn in slight shock as he speaks in a terse voice. His eyes clearly show that if I don't tell him, I can't expect to learn what I want to know. Moreover, the way he refers to P'Trump... It makes me uneasy, suggesting that he must have done something very wrong.
"It's nothing. He is just a senior from high school." I try to keep my voice steady.
I know Tinn clearly divides people by their social status. If he knows I am gay and have been exploited for three months, he will surely look down on me.
That would not make me feel as bad as him immediately cutting ties with me. No matter how he is, I still see him as a friend—one who helps me when I ask. I do not want to lose this friend.
My answer makes him narrow his eyes a bit, and he leans in closer to me.
"I'll tell you something... I have encountered people who can lie to the whole world. Do you really think I won't see through your kindergarten level lies?" Tinn's gaze seems to pierce through me, but for a brief moment, I see a painful glimmer in his eyes that quickly fades away.
"Can we not talk about this?" I realize I cannot lie to him, so I plead with him instead.
This makes him smile slightly at the corner of his mouth and lean in a little closer, which I feel is... intimidating.
"I hate those who try to take advantage of me, just as much as those who try to hide things that I want to know..."
Thud!
Crash!!!!
"Why are you messing with my person?!"
Before Tinn can say anything more, my body flies backward. I hear the sound of something crashing, and as I look up, I see the broad back of someone... Ae.
Now Ae stands in front of me, one hand tightly gripping my wrist while the other just pushes Tinn's chest hard, causing my friend to stagger back several steps. From this angle, I can't see his expression, but my ears still clearly hear what he says.
My person.
Ae said that I belong to him... right?
"What do you mean?" Of course, Tinn wouldn't miss the implication of this. He shoots a glance at Ae before turning to me, but before I can say anything, Ae speaks the words that make my heart tremble.
"Yes! Ai'Pete is mine!"
"Uh... Ae?"
I can only let out a shocked sound, my eyes wide open, just like Tinn, who is probably startled and understands its meaning almost immediately.
However, before I can think of anything else, Ae turns back to look at me again, his eyes filled with a kind of anger I have never known before. I only know that it makes my heart race as much as it scares me.
"Now that you know, don't you dare mess with my person again!"
After Ae finishes speaking, he yanks me hard, making me quickly step forward to keep up. At that moment, I have no presence of mind to look back at my friend. Ae's words echo in my head over and over.
Ae said that I belong to him... several times. What does that mean...? Please tell me.
Perspective - Ae (Inthach)
I see Ai'Pete as soon as he steps onto the football field. I want to run to him, but I am stuck in practice. I think to myself that as soon as there's a break, I will go find him. I even consider calling Ai'Pond to keep him company. Then suddenly, a phone call comes in, and he gets up and leaves. I try to think positively that it might be a friend or something, but from that distance, it is far enough that they could talk without anyone hearing. The fact that he leaves like this means... someone has called him out.
I might be overly concerned, but I run to talk to my upperclassman and then chase after Ai'Pete, and the sight I see makes me... angry.
Ai'Pete is with his bad tempered Khun-chai friend, and if they were just standing there talking, I wouldn't think much. However, from the angle where I stand... Ai'Tinn's face is so close to Ai'Pete's that I feel my blood rush to my face.
Images of Ai'Pond being close to Ai'Pete flash through my mind. The image of Ai'Sun being near Ai'Pete also comes to me, and the moment I see Ai'Pete close to this Khun-chai makes me understand in that instant.
Ai'Pete is mine... I will not let anyone take him away!
I dash forward, pushing the annoying Khun-chai brat, yank Ai'Pete towards me, and declare loudly that Pete is mine, dragging him toward the locker room. I hear Ai'Pete question me in a trembling voice. I know he is probably scared, but I am too anxious to turn around and respond to him.
Click.
I drag Ai'Pete into the empty locker room and immediately lock the door. Then I turn to look at my Khun-chai who is watching me in surprise.
"What did he do to you?!" I ask in a voice that slips through my teeth, prompting him to shake his head vigorously.
"He... he didn't do anything, Ae. Tinn didn't do anything…"
"And why were your faces so close?!" Before he can finish, I immediately shout.
I know I am acting childish, but I really don't like seeing him close to another guy.
"There's really nothing, Ae. Tinn just brought some documents and talked a little, really!" Ai'Pete tries to explain to me, looking like he is pleading for me to believe him.
I do believe him, but the feelings that have been building inside me since Paragon are about to explode.
Thud!
I grab Ai'Pete's shoulders and push him until his back presses against the old wall of the room. Then I stare into his face. His eyes are filled with uncertainty, as if pleading for me to believe him.
I hold Ai'Pete's cheeks tightly, feeling the softness that I am so attached to, and speak heavily.
"Don't get close to anyone else like you do with me again... I beg you."
It isn't a command. Forcing someone to comply is easy, but I want him to follow my words from his heart, and it seems my words make him stutter.
"W-why, Ae... why are you saying this...?"
That question makes me even more certain, so I pull him closer to me, staring deeply into his eyes and speaking heavily.
"Be with me, don't make me wait any longer."
He looks at me with a shocked expression, but I don't care. I don't intend to give myself any chances like he suggested anymore. I don't like Chomphu, not at all. I care for that girl like a younger sister, unlike Ai'Pete, who just looks at me with shock. Seizing the moment, I press my lips down onto his soft orange ones immediately.
Right now, I don't need an answer. I just want to do anything to imprint my identity onto him, to let him know that he belongs to me.
Ai'Pete, you are mine.
"Mmm Hmmm!"
This thought compels me to press my kiss against his lips. I know that I am not skilled at kissing. I do not know how to kiss. However, it feels like an instinct to taste these lips. I press down harder, swaying left and right to feel this softness more intimately, yet I sense it is not enough. I want to kiss him more. I want to experience every flavor of these lips.
I gradually ease the pressure of my embrace.
My hand, which is locked around his neck, slowly slides to touch the base of it softly. My fingertips gently caress his smooth skin as if I am unaware that I am doing this. I feel that his lips are slowly parting, as if relaxing, until I slide the tip of my tongue inside.
"Hmm, ahh," his moan is cute.
I do not know if he is aware that he moans out loud because he is holding my clothes tightly, while I am touching his tongue with mine, feeling the softness within and the sweetness that seeps through the clear liquid that is exchanging between us.
Now I am even more addicted to his mouth. I lick his upper and lower lips, alternately inserting the tip of my tongue into his mouth, touching it everywhere I can. I can feel the moisture dripping down our chins, but I don't care.
I'm even more infatuated with these lips.
Ugh!
"Ah... eh... ya... don't..."
I do not even allow myself to pull my face away. When our lower bodies touch, I know immediately that I'm not the only one who feels it. The heat that touches me indicates that I have made Pete feel the same way.
That attracts my attention as much as the lips.
I had never thought, in this life, that I would ever touch another man's dick, but Pete's dick that is pushing against mine makes me shiver. My hand automatically unbuttons his pants. Before my eyes is the sight of his face that is flushed red, and above all, his eyes that brim with clear tears.
Together, they urge my palm to reach in.
Does Ai'Pete realize that the expression on his handsome face is both alluring and seductive?
Are you doing it on purpose, making that face? How can I possibly endure this?
I have never before seen anyone's expression and felt this good. Even the actors in the AV that Ai'Pond showed me cannot compare to Ai'Pete, who is trembling and closing his eyes tight when I have not yet touched his sensitive dick in his pants at all.
"Ah... uh... s-stop... s- ...
I would never force anyone, but Pete probably doesn't know that his words compel me to do the opposite and continue, just like his body that is loyal to its owner is pushing itself towards my hand, making me pull his pants down to his hips.
I see him then, and his dick is light colored. The pink tip is so adorable that I have to flick and rub it hard with my fingertips, causing Pete to tremble all over. He still keeps his eyes tightly shut, shaking his head back and forth. However, his hand is clutching my shirt tightly.
No...don't...oh...don't do that...uh...um...
"You're twitching all over, Pete," I murmur softly, even though my lower half also feels hot and tight. I feel like I am about to explode, but I felt good that I am making him cum.
"Hey... uh!!!" Pete's dick twitches strongly as I am stroking it.
I myself also feel tortured, but I turn a bit to look at Pete's lips.
"Pete...open your mouth."
Pete slowly opens his eyes and looks at me. His eyes are dewy with unshed tears, so I gently wipe them with my fingertip before moving it to touch his red lips. As he slowly opens his mouth, I let my fingertip enter his mouth.
"Um..." he lets out a soft sound as my two fingers push against his tongue, and that further intensifies my desire to explore the entire cavity of his mouth with those two fingers, touching his soft tongue all around, until clear fluid drips down the corners of his mouth.
I must be a sexual deviant, I'm getting hotter and hotter just because my fingers are playing with his tongue... The tongue is responding by licking my fingers until they're soaked with saliva.
"Ah... eee... eek…"
Ai'Pete cries out, unable to bear it any longer. His body jerks violently, letting me know that he is about to finish. At the same time, he raises his hand to grasp my wrist, which is playing with his lips, and then he is the one to lick my fingers back and forth. His eyes narrow slightly before he pulls away from my fingers, biting his lower lip tightly before...
Suddenly.
"Agai... uh... Ae, khrap... pant... pant..." He cums all over my palm as he groans my name, and that makes me reach out my saliva-soaked hand to touch my midsection as I pull Pete into a full hug. His hot breath against my ear and his voice calling my name, make me move my hand just a few times.
"Pant... pant... Ae, khrap... Ae..."
"Again!"
I, myself, cum with greater ease than ever before, even though Ai'Pete hasn't touched my dick at all.
Now, the two of us are both panting heavily. I hold him tightly, just as he holds me tightly. Our breathing, body temperature, and the rhythm of our hearts go in the same direction, until I feel relaxed from the emotions just now. Only then do I whisper in his ear.
"Please date me, Pete... Please date me."
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